okay damn

i haven't posted in like a fucking month, hah, wellll, lets start with today, i was suppose to go to the mall and movies with tyler, but we just went to the mall, it was a really great time. hahaha it was like i was the man and he was the women because i bought him a shirt, held his jacket, and walked him out, hahahah but it was fun. okay so like yeah, i bought him a shirt from hottopic for his birthday. he picked it out and it was a my chemical romance t shirt. oh and hahahha it kept smelling his jacket because like it smelled way good, haha. oh and he chin checked me like threee times, i did it to him once... haha, and then we called trues, and then he kept hurting me and we called trues on that too but he still kept hurting me after that too, like poking me and crap. hahah. but yeah. and oh my gosh, like hahahaha, okay so andrew sent me this forward thing and so then i sent it back to him and tyler, and we were in this little booth thing buying something and i was about to crack up laughing because the forward message was like, i dont know, lame, and the counter lady thought i was about to say something, and then tyler checked his phone and was like thankkkkks, hahahaha, it was hilarious. then later on we went to the food court, he got fries from burger king and a sprite from little tokyo haha, and my aunt and joanne kept asking me, who drove you here? did he drive you here? hahah and also then he told me how i sent him two texts? and i was like what? i only sent you one, and he was like no you sent me and foward and another one saying you're freaking hot and im like whaat? what are you talking about? because andrew also said i said he was freaking hot and i texted him back saying nooo i never said that, what are you talking about? ahahaha, so then tyler showed me the texts and i was like ohhh! that text is the end of that text, so like th "ur freakin hot" part was suppose to be the end of the forward text haahaha, so its like perfect how it like cut off and everything but yeah that was funny. hahaha and likeee, we went to pacsun, and there was this mannequin that would be the same size as me if it had legs and a head, and tyler told me to stand next to it and i was like no, and i kept walking away and then he came over to me and picked me up and then dropped me! hahahah, but it was just like four inches away from the ground, and then i texted jenny saying how like tyler picked me up and dropped me and she was like what a bitch, hahahah. but oh my gosh, okay so my parents also went to the mall, and we saw them and we were about to go in victoria secret because tyler was like hey lets go in there, hahah but he was kidding, hahaha, but yeah that was funny too. but yeah thats about it what happened at the malll. and okay, on halloween? i didnt do anything, hahaa, i was suppose to go to the movies with jelani at 11:50 butttt i kinda fell asleep at ten, hahahah. and what else happened? uhm on november eighth? i went to codys bonfire/birthday party, it was really fun, haha, but like the fire kept getting in my eyes so it kept looking like i was crying hahah. and then sam asked me out that day? and im likee oookay, and he was like i was kidding cindy were best friends... yeah whatever. hes been being mean to me lately. ever since like i called james, and asked him what skeet looked like because alissa was like does skeet look like lotion?! and i was like i dont know, lets call someone, so we called, henry, then jelani, then william, then cody, and then james, hahaha james was like "its white and creamy" hahahah that was funny, he didnt even like question why we wanted to know but yeahh. i didnt go to the alltimelow/maydayparade/themaine/everyavenue concert... oh well, or the foreverthesickestkids/cobrastarship/hitthelights/singitloud concert because when i was going, me jenny and my dad got lost, hahahaha, like we were lost in downtown cincinnati for like a fucking hour but it was funny even though my dad was getting super pissed. so then we just went back, and went to wendys, hahaha, then i went to the irwins house and spent the night. we were suppose to pull an allnighter but jenny went to sleep, ahhaha, and curtis was over and like he drew on my face, that little brat! hahah but he only got like one side of my cheek and thats it, and james got jenny like really good but then we got them back like jenny drew alll over james's face, and kinda on curtis's. curtis woke up and was like awh, you guys. and james woke up like five seconds later and was like i could smell the sharpie. hahah. but yeah. oh and i woke up when abbie was about to draw on meredith, hahah, so she didnt do it. but oh yeah curtis dropped an egg, and was like oh shit, hahahah that was funnny. and hahah, okay so i was talking to curtis on myspace and he was like yeah i didnt want you to turn your head and you to wake up and punch me in the face hahahaha i was like whoa im not that mean, and he was like okay i'll draw all over you the next kkkkk? and i was like hahah i'd slap you, and then he was like oh i see you have a fisty side. and he was like okay i'll do something else and i was like like what? and he was like okay next time i sleepover at james, you sleepover too. and you'll find out and he hasnt told me hahah oh well, i guess ill find out eventually. but todays that last day of thanksgiving breakk.... okay so on tuesday i did nothing. wednesday i slepover at danas house and we watched the lion king and tried the special k cake i made! hahah it was suuuuuper good. and im going to make her mom, mrs anderson one the next time i come over, haha. then on thursday, thanksgiving day, danas dad drove me home, and i accidently fell asleep so i missed dinnner... ahah i was suppose to go to my aunts but whatever. friday i went to the movies with dana andrew, and her mason friends, meg and chelsea. we watched twilight, that was a pretty good movie. and saturday i did nothing and yeah today, sunday i hung out with tyler. but yeahhhh, more stuff has happened like me haley and dannie are cool now, yay! haha, yupp, but yeah and i seriously am over james, like for real :)

i hate my life right now

okay so a lot of people think im like a skank and fucking crap like that, just because haley and dannie are telling people that i did crap, okay i dont fucking care about them anymore. they just keep making more drama, and im like yeah, not really making any drama. so a lot of peopel hate me. and omg, i like fell asleep yesterday all of it. like all through math and advisory, and when i got home, i fell asleep at five thirty, then woke up at nine thirty, and went back to sleep at eleven... but yeah, i hate my life right now. it is just go fucking retarded, gosh, oiwfwoegboa okay, whatever. well me and sam might go to the concert, the we the kings and the academy is... concert, hopefully. but yeah, haley is just being a bitch, i havent even really said anything about her, like nothing really, because i dont want to start more drama, i hate this school year, theres so much fucking drama, where I AM involved in, its so stupid, and plus, ive already liked someone. last year in seventh grade, i didnt really exactly like anyone, so yeah, i just really hate this, ugh, fuck, whatever. i just really want love, like seriously speaking now, someone who reads this is probably going to laugh, but yeah i just want a boyfriend who i can depend on, i feel like i depend on jelani a little bit too much.. but yeah, i hate this..... and on saturday i went to kings island with dana and we met up with adrew and keith. after that, keith told me he liked me when i went to danas house to sleepover. i dont like him, i still fucking like james, fuck fuck fuck, but yeah, then dana called him left him a voicemail asking him if im really wasting my time liking him and he said hm thats a hard question he'll have to think about it and i asked him yesterday if he likes me as a friend and nothing more and he siad um yeah os yeakrjblbnwesoinvwen fuck ilewbnoiwebgnoiesnf

okay my dream today was kinda funny, but sad now that i think about it

okay so my dream was like, well the setting of it, was yesterday night when i was like at james's house, then he like put his hands on my shoulders and was like cindy, will you ask me out? and i was like um no you do it, and then he was like okay okay okay and walks away, so i was like are we going out or not in my head, and then all of a sudden i was with cody, and we walked into his house, he looked at me and walks like right past me, and then i told jenny about it, and she was like awh you shouldnt have said that, he has never asked a girl out, and yeah, so then like she starts crying and stuff and talks about ryan so i was really sad and stuff, and yeah... then all of a sudden i was at a pool with alissa brynn and rebecca and the water was really discusting, haha thats all i remember but awhhhh, this dream made me sad, because im like 80 percent sure hes not going to ask me out, so yeah....

ahahahha okay

alright, so on wednesday, on the bus, claire texted me and was like so i heard you gave james a handjob, and i was like um no who told you that? and she was like james, and i was like um well i didnt. and then chelsea texted me and said so i heard you gave james a handjob, and i was like omg, who told you that? and she was like james, and im like, omg how does chelsea know? like does a lot of people know, or what..? and then chelsea texted me and was like sorrry! that was sam ,and i was like oh okay, its fine. and so then i thought james told sam, so i was like ugh that bitch, but i texted him and was like um whyd you tell claire i gave you a handjob? and he didnt reply so i was like, oh this bitch and dickhead, in my head. and i called alissa, and i was like tearing up when i was telling her, and she was like omg hes such a bitch, and yeah. so then we called his house phone. no one answered. so then we called his cell phone. he didnt pick up, so alissa was like, um why are you telling people you gave cindy a handjob? thats not true so stop spreading rumors, cunt. and then it was just me and her on the phone again, and i was like hahaha nooo, alissa, its me giving james a handjob, not him giving me one, and she was like oh hahaha let me call him back, and then she left a voicemail saying, sorry about that, i meant why were you spreading rumors saying that cindy gave you a handjob? and oh it was me that apologized to you, not catherine, but i take that back, so yeah, cunt. hahahhaha, alissas funny and mean. but woo man i was pissed... then i IMed sam saying i hate you, like i hate you for believing james or something, but he was like hahaha sorry it was me both times, meaning he took claires phone and said that to me, so i was like oh fuck, alissa left him mean voicemails,.... hahahaah, so yeah, i was like kinda mad at sam. but then me and jenny were on the phone basically talking about anything, and then like i told about what happened, and she was like oh haha i would be mad too and stuff. and james texted me like at six saying i didnt. and i was like oh yeah, i kinda figured that out, in my head, but i didnt text him back because i didnt feel like explaining to him it so yeah, so i was like haha im just going to call james after i get off the phone with you. and so me and jenny got off the phone, and then i called james, and i was like uhm did you get the voicemails that alissa gave you...? and he was like um no what are you talking about? and i was like oh well alissa left you voicemails because she thought you were telling people i gave you a handjob.. and he was like well i didnt, and i was like yeah i know, i know who did it, and he was like who? and i was like fucking sam, and he was like he's a dick, and i was like ha yeah i know, and then i was like well alissa doesnt mean like any of that by the way, and yeah then we talked some more, probably for like five minutes, and then i was like alright so i guess ill just text you so bye, and he was like bye and yeah. ahahah okay, and so like the next day, on thursday, before zero bell, and like only kids were in the hallway, sam came out of his instrument room,and was like laughing a me, and i was like sams a bitch! really loudly, and like everyone turned around and looked at me, ahahahha like james, because he was going in the instrument room, but he turned around because he knew why i called sam that hahahah so that was funny. and alissa apologized in person to james and yeah. then me and alissa were on the phone, and then we called james? i forget why, but yeah we did. and then she left after ten minutes, then me and james were on the phone, ahhah we didnt really like talk that much, but yet we did? but yeah, we were on the phone for an hour and like five minutes, ahaha, but yeah. then on friday, i went over to james house at like 5:45, because his mom was giving me a ride and yeah, it was kinda weird, me and him were just sitting across from each other hahaha, and we were like watching the news, hahahaha, but he asked if i wanted to watch anything and i was like i dont really care, hahaha but yeah, and he also asked if i wanted anything to eat or drink and i was like nahh, im good. but yeah. hahah then we went to the game, and oh boy it was cold! hhaha, i was like omg im cold like every ten seconds, then james gave me his sweatshirt, once again, but i kept asking him do you want it back? and one of the times he was like nahh i can handle it, im a white boy, white boys dont get cold, hahahaha, hes cool, then i asked him like the fifth time, and ive had it on for like thirty minutes, and he was like yeah kinda, haha so i gave it back but nothing really happened. only like ten people went that i know, i think maybe less? but yeah. BUT OMG, so there were like middletown boys, and they came over our side. and there seventh graders, and claire kissed one of them four times, and they werent like pecks either, they were like a minute long kisses, and she only knew him for like an hour, wow shes such a little skank! haahha everybody that i was hanging out with was like omg shes such a skank. like me mac james cody emily brett jake and omg i think thats all the people i was basically with?! wow i thought here were more.. but yeah. then cody was like okay no one talk to her, but i did in the end, i was like that was kinda skankish and she isnt even going out with that guy... but yeah. but we lost, we like ALMOST won, 29-28, it was a really close game... but yeah. hahah okay so james was like okay bye! and he gave me a hug, and i was like too bad your giving me a ride home, and i was like i am? oh yeah i am! and hahaha i did that to mark to, i went up to him and i was like bye! and jenny was like were giving him a ride home! and i was like oh right, and then james laughed at me, and i was like thats what you did to me! ahahha, but yeah, it was funny. ahahah okay so jenny dared me to jump on cody so i did, but oh course i fell because hes not that strong, and he was like oh i was trying to get you off because i thought you were claire, oh suree.... but yeah, then cody was like fine ill give you a piggy back ride, but he bent down too far, and i was like rolled over, hahahaha, it was funny, but it kinda hurt, hahaha but yeah. then i was at jennys james and merediths house, i was ABOUT to sleepover but my dad was like you shouldve told me before and crap, oh well, its all good, i was a little mad, but ehh not so much, but yeah. so then i left there house almost at 12, but it was like 11:45 so yeah. i dont even think james know i left, hahah, but yeah. it was fun at the game yesterday. but yuppp, i wonder if im really going to go to kings island with alissa, but i dont know,... if not i might just go with james but yeah, ill write in here later,so yeah bye.

well i feel like a bitch

okay, well apparently, haley thinks tyler likes me... so yeah, and she like is all mad and stuff because she thinks of all her boyfriends, travis nick and tyler, has liked someone else while they were going out with her. and two of them happen to like me. well, thats what she thinks. like she thought travis liked me, and now she thinks tyler likes me, so yeah i feel like a bitch. and to cody? i was kinda mean to him and stuff on the bus yesterday, i hurt him physically and emotionally.... yeah... but im too tired to type so ill maybe type it tomorrow, so yeah, bye

fearfest was fun this saturday

on saturday, was the most fun i had ever had in feafest. but the day started out like this. me cody and james planned to go to fearfest. and like james was going to go over to codys but he fell asleep hahaha, so i went over to codys house. we were there just chilling for like thirty minutes. then we went to red robins with his parents and four of his parents friends. it was cool i guess. haha. but yeah, i got like mozzerella sticks. because they said i HAD to get something, so i was like alright i will. but yeah. i saw so many people from my church there! it was crazy. and like amy looked at me and turned around and kept walking forward. i dont think she remembers me at all. haha but yeah. then after red robins. we walked outside and damnnnn it was fucking cold. and like i only had skinny jeans, a tank top, and my princeton tennis sweatshirt over that, and converses. dude, it was so cold already and that was around seven? and like cody wouldnt give me his long sleeve shirt so i texted james and was like are you still home? and he said ha yeah and i was like alright will you get a sweatshirt for me to wear since im like really cold. and he said alright. and yeah. then he got to kings island at like seven ten and hahaha dude okay so me and cody were like at kings island at seven ten but it took us twenty minutes to go through the metal detector thing, then go to the one place where you go to get a ticket if you forgot your pass, and they told us we had to go to the group sales for that, so we had to walk all the way back, and then get my ticket, and then go through the metal dectector again, and get our ticket/pass scanned and yeah. hahah it took forever, there was a line for everything. then me and cody got in to kings island, me and james were like on the phone explaining where each other is, and cody had to go to the bathroom, hahah, i was like james go to the bathroom, and he was like the bathroom? and im like yes the bathroom and he was like i dunno where that is and i was like uhm where are you then? and he was like im at the car, and im like which one the right or left one? and he was like the left one and then i finally found him, and gave him a hug and he gave me his sweatshirt. he was just wearing two t shirts, and im like are you not cold? and he was like no im not , im fine. and im like are you sure? hahaha i asked him that like five times when we were there. i wore it basically the whole time at kings island. so then we walked to the bathroom, and cody joined us. then we were like walking to the train trail and like so it was james then me and cody and like people kept doing stuff to james hahaha, like different random people. one of them like bummed into him purposely, and something else happened with another random person, and then a random person took a picture of us? like it just flashed and then james was like cody do you want this side? hahaha. but yeah. we stopped at like a candy machine thing? i think, and like cody was like cindy buy me some skittles, and like he was like oh you cant because you have a twenty dollar bill and they dont accept it, and so i was like how do you know they dont accept twenty dollar bills, and i looking at james and cody, and they were both smiling really big and i was like uhm why are you guys smiling really big? and cody and james were like look behind you and i didnt, but yeah, hahaha. then cody and james tried to run from me, and i jumped on cody and codys like im about to fall and then he falls, hahahah, and like james gave cody a piggyback ride, it looked sorta gay, hahaha but then we saw the line for the train and it was super long so we just went to the pirate one. but they wanted ice cream so we went to get ice cream. they both got the blue ice cream. but i had to pay for codys since he didnt have any money. but hahahah okay, so james got his ice cream first and it like fell over when he licked it and he caught it! hahahaha, people like there ordering there ice cream and the workers were like did you catch it? and yeah, and so his ice cream was like sideways ahhaha. then we went in line for the pirate trail thing. and like james ate like all the top of his ice cream and like one fourth of his cone and then he was like oh, im done eating this, and just drops it on the ground. hahaha. then cody cody asked if i wanted his ice cream and im like no, and then he asks james and james was like i just dropped mines because i didnt want it. haha so then cody was like dude james i dare you to drop this and cody barely ate his ice cream, it was like still a lot. so then james took it and just drops it. ahahahah it was hilarious. i have a picture of it. but yeah. it landed on like the top part. then while we were in line, they were talking about there "six packs" and cody was like look at my six pack and lifts up his shirt and james was like what six pack? ahhaha, and then james shows off his six pack, mmmm hahaha, then cody keeps talking about his six pack, and james was like you have a one pack. hahaha. but yeah then we went on the pirate thing. there was a group in front of us, then cody, then me, and then james. hahaha james was dead last. it was not really that scary at all. maybe because it was my second time on it, but i dunno. after that, we got in line for the train. we were in line for like ten minutes. hahaha james was like oh crap i think thats my cousin, and me and cody were like which one? and i was like james irwin! and he was grabbed me back and i kinda fell hahahha. then cody kept saying james irwin super loud but they didnt look back. haahhah when we were in line, we kept chin checking each other, and dude cody chin checked me like super hard, it kinda hurt hahah. then we got out of line because it was too long and we were walking to racers? and like i asked cody for a piggy back ride and codys like no! and im like okay fine, and then i asked james for a piggy back ride, and like james gave me one, and he was like running with me on his back and cody was like yeah yeah yeah! running along too hahah, then james was like okay lets now switch or something like that, and so i was getting on codys back from james back but it didnt really work well and i was like see cody you cant carry me, your too weak. hahah. and then cody was like no i can carry you, just stand on that thing and get on my back so i did and yeah he actually did carry me. but i kinda just got off because i was already falling to the side hahaha. yeah then this random hot dude hahahha walks up to cody while we were passing him and i thought he asked cody if he wants a cigarette and codys like no, and then he asks me and i was like yeah! then he was like you have one? and i was like oh no, and james was like what did he ask you and yeah. then we started talking about smoking. and james said he has smoked two cigarettes in his life. and cody said he smoked pot before and james was like for real? and cody was like yeah. and james was like from where? and cody said from his cousin and james was like you should hook me up and codys like im just kidding i didnt smoke it, but i did like take a puff of it. and yeah. i didnt really say anything about it haha. but yeah. then cody and james rode racers together, and they made me ride by myself, yay... hha yeah. then right when they got off, they ran from me! hahaha, i like got off, but i fell, and everyone was like ooooo, like ooo that hurt, or something like that, and hahah they kept running and then they finally stopped. they like they still kept trying to run away from me but i had james arm, haha. but yeah. then there was like a smoke thing, and like james went to like breathe it in, and he like bent down, but fell but he put his like hand down to like not fall on his face, and he broke the smoke box thing, hahaha. but yeah. then we went into la rosas, and like cody was like okay give me money to buy pizza, and i was went into my butt pocket to get it, and i was like omg, i dont have it, and cody was like are you being serious or just messing around, and im like im serious. and then like james was like ill pay since he had like fourty bucks, haha. then i went to the bathroom. and when i came back, i was like behind james and i poke his sides, and he like turned around quickly and stuff, and was like startled and was like oh, hahaha. it was kinda funny. then cody wanted a cheese pizza, and he didnt want his pizza to have peperroni on it like at all. he didnt even want it to touch. and james wanted pepperoni on his pizza, and they only serve like either two cheese, or two pepperonis, and they both didnt want to ask the person for one cheese and one pepperoni, and then i was like fine ill ask, and so i did and it was simple. and james was like yeah and we did the handshake kinda thing. and james kept asking me if i wanted anything and i was like no, i dont and he was like are you sure? and he kept asking me that for like three more times. haha. then there was like meat patties in this thing, and there was like oil juice kinda thing to keep it warm and oily? and cody was like james would you drink a cup of that for like fifty bucks, and james was like ew, no, i would barf, and then james asked me, and i was like uhm no because thats like meat and he was like why you dont like meat? and i said i was a vegetarian and he was like you are? and im like yup. and then cody was like are you a vegetarian because you think your fat? and i was like i weigh 95 pounds so i dont think im fat. and he was like oh okay because haleys a vegetarian because she thinks shes fat. and yeah. then we were talking about wrestling weight. and how cody weighed like 98 pounds last year for wrestling. hahah damnn he was extra skinny. but now he weighs 115. and james weigh 120. then i just got water, and james got sprite, like a large one to share with cody. and he asked if i wanted sprite to put in my cup and i was like nah. and yeah. then after that we went to the clown trail. they made me wait in line by myself for five minutes because they had to pee, hahaha, but yeah, then somehow we were talking about smoking, and cody was like nah ill never smoke because thats how my uncle died, and i like felt really sad and bad, and then james was like oh yeah because it like clogs up your lungs and everything. then cody was like yeah he died because the doctors gave him the wrong medication, and james was like them bitches and awh i couldve cried right there and then because i just felt super bad, and i know cody cried at the vineyard trip because of his uncle. wow, i just felt like uber bad. but yeah so they kept talking about crack and everything and i was just really quiet since i was sad and stuff, and cody was like cindy probably thinks were like crazy or something and i was like um no i dont really, and cody was like oh alright because your not talking and stuff. were not going to do that kinda stuff and james was like yeah, and then cody asked whats wrong, and bleh thats the worst question to ask me when im like sad, so i was like about to cry, like i teared up and they didnt really know why i was sad, so they thought it was something they said, but it was and yeah. then like i just didnt really talk, and cody had this necklace, and they will like "accidentally" drop it so they can see if i was crying or whatever but yeah, then when it was our turn to get in line i was like the very first person, then cody, and then james and another group.hahaha dude, okay so like there was this part where its like mirrors or something you cant tell where you can go in so like i had to have my hand on the mirrors and if i feel an opening ill go through it. ahahah we went in a circle. but yeah. then like there was this opening that was only a foot wide and i was trying to go through it and cody was like cindy you dont go through there and i was like oh hahha. then yeah. it wasnt as great because they had less people working in the maze this time then last time i went. but yeah. then after that, we got in line for the cemetary and yeah. then me and james mentioned that cody looked bald, hahah because he had a hat on. and then he talked about shaving his head. and i was like ewww, cody, you'll look so ugly. and james was like i thought you said you dont call people ugly? because i said that i dont call people ugly since thats mean. hahah and i was like oh i was kidding when i said that. and then i was like cody i bet all the girls who think your hot are going to think your ugly if you shave your hair, and cody was like who thinks im hot? and i was like im not telling, and him and james were like why not? its not like something bad. and then i was like go guess, and ill say. and then cody was like you, and i was like uhm no, actually yeah kinda. but youll look hot if you grew your hair out. then he said kept saying peoples names, and he guessed alissa and catherine and i said yeah. then in the cemetary. i was pretty much first because the group in front of us just kinda went ahead. but yeah. so then i had to be first and i was kinda scared. hahaha, like i would just keep stopping and james was behind me so he was like cindy! go! and i was no! hahah. then me and james stopped because like we saw a shadow, and he was like i see someones shadow, and i was like me too. and then i was like stupid! thats the fogs shadow and he was like i know so go! ahhaha, like i kept getting scared on that trail for some reason. but after that we got on son of beast.cody rode by himself. hahahah, he himself said that he would ride by himself. but he started getting pissed at us and stuff. like james laughed at cody and was like cody its not even that big of a deal, but hahah yeah. then me and james rode it, we kept talking about how cold it was, hahaha., but yeah. then i was about to take off his sweatshirt like when we were going up the hill, and he was like no not now, i wouldnt even be able to put it on. so then we rode it, and yeah. i gave him his sweatshirt, and he put it on and was like oh this is nice and warm hahah. i wasnt even that cold when i took it off either. hahh. but yeah. then james took his phone out of his pockets, and his glasses from the clown trail came out, and i was like hey my glasses, and he was no theyre my glasses, they just came out of my pocket and i was like nuh uh, and reached through his sweatshirt pockets and they werent there, and i was like oh i guess they flew out when we were on son of beast. haha. but yeah. then we were in line for club blood, hahahaha okay james told cody his phone was indestructable, and cody didnt believe him so cody was like throw it against those concrete steps, and like james did and you could see that it worked perfectly fine, ahahah then cody was like like whoa awesome, he kept like dropping it, and people behind us were like what is he doing? hahahah then like the third time cody drops it, the screen like broke. hahah like only one fourth of it works perfectly fine, and the other three fourths is like black. ahhahaha. and james got mad at cody and cody was like i thought your phone was indestructable and yeah hahaha it was hilarious. so then like james hit codys stomach pretty hard with the back of his hand. hahaha and cody was like ow! and james was like wheres that six pack of yours huh? hahah i found it hilarious. then like we went into club blood and yeah, it was kinda discusting since there were pole dancers and stuff, and yeahhhhh, then we like left all together since james was going to sleepover at codys, and yeah, then codys parents gave me a ride home, and yuppp. that was my day, it was really funny, and today, i did nothing hahah. oh and james might be switching to my math and science class? i dunno for sure yet. but he used his moms phone today and yeah

this weeks been fun so far

okay so lets start with tuesday, burger king it was fun and a little weird. even jelani said it. cody picked me up at my house, and yeah. we got to burger king an hour early and yeah. we kinda just hung. nothing really big or anything. then jelani gave me a ride home. henry cody jelani and jeremy went to burger king. but actually we were mostly hanging out in wendys. but yeah. then i gave everyone a hug including jeremy... but yeah. and then on wednesday, i made like 48 cookies. hahah. i gave them all away on my birthday at school. not everyone got one.. but oh well. haha. dude when i was giving james a hug and everything. i was like shaking hahaha. yeah i know, im cool. but yeah. then for that night, i did nothing because no one wanted or could go to the orchestra concert with me. blah, but oh well. i still had fun that night, kinda. school was very fun. i wore a burger king hat, haha. but i dont feel like fourteen just yet. but yeah. then yesterday, i had tons of fun. i went to danas hour around like five something. it was really fun, but her house is huge! but i guess its because they have six kids in the house so yeah. and we ate dinner there. and yeah. i saw amy and yup, it was a little weird. haha. dana broke up with alan when i was there too! they went out for a week. dana broke up with him because he wanted to like kiss her already and shes never had her first kiss so yeah. but she made me play this stupid garbage can game. i felt soooooooo lame. hahahaha. but it was funny. like so i had this garbage can, and like i had to roll it down her drive way and it went like all swirly and crap on me and so i finally fell and we were like laughing a whole bunch. haahhahah it was hilarious. but yeah. and we ate her moms brownie, and mmmm it was delicious! hahah :D then like we got ready for the game and everything and yeah. when we got there we went over to the princeton side and then to the mason side. i felt a little weird over there. but we saw claires pedro... yay. hes kinda cute. he looks better with his hat on cause his hairs like a fro haha. but yeah. then we went back to the princeton side. i hung out with tyler gutierrez the most at the game. hahah we were like chin checking eachother. and i chin checked like everyone. and james tried to chin check me back and yeah it was funny. and then we called trues on eachother, well me and tyler, but i did it to him again because he believed james over me and something haha. but yeah the game was really fun. and like the dudes were playing football with james's phone. it broke into like five pieces like about four times. hahahah one of it was because of me. like he threw it really far and i didnt know i was suppose to catch it so like it fell to the ground and broke hahaha, but yeah.and when the dudes were playing football, i was on tylers back for like five minutes, and then i got tired cause i had to like hold on to him hahaha. but yeah, and then he gave me a piggy back ride again. but i felt really bad because his back hurted afterwards ;[ but yeah. it was really fun though. i hung out with mostly the freshmans, hahah. like dani and taylor gittings. but yeah,. and like james was saying how i should give him 50 reeses and im like no, hahah, dude fifty? no. hes like why not thats only like five dollars. oh sure, thats like five dollars for ten reeses, ahha. but yeah. but i might give him fourteen since hes turning fourteen? ahah, but yeah. oh and james had like sour patch kids, he gave me kinda a lot. and he gave tyler some and tyler was like do you dare me to sniff it up and so i was like yeah and he did, hahaha it was funny. but yeah. my hands were so sugary from the sour patch kids, it was annoying. oh and i gave like tyler two of my sex bracelets. and i have james one of them? ahha at first i was like no when james asked for it and then he was like why not me and mac were the ones who got them with our own money and i was like i was kidding when i said no, haha so i gave him one i think? because he broke two out of four of the bracelets i gave him at the last game. and like tyler was like what does each of them mean and stuff. and then he was like just give me your arm and im like no your going to try to break them. and then he was like no im not and we went on and then finally i was like okay fine. then he was asking james what this and that color meant. and then after all the questions and he was about to break one. and i was like no! so i bent down while he was holding my hands and kinda sat on james's shoes. haha.and they were both laughing at me cause i was freaking out and stuff, haha. but yeah it was fun. then near the end james had a ring pop that wasnt like opened yet, and i was like oh can i have a lick, and he was like you can have it and im like really? and he was like yeah i have another one and yeah. then i left with dana and her mom drove me to the restaurant and yeah. ahhaha dude the ring pop lasted like seventy minutes. hahaha. but yeah. then like yeah. we just kinda chilled there and yeah. hahahaha the most funniest thing was like okay. so i was with chris, he was like laying on my shoulder. and we were sitting on a couch. and then like jason was sitting on the floor against the counter desk thing. and like chris was like take a picture with me and him so i have a picture where chris is overly happy and jason is just there asleep hahahahah. it was hilarious. then me and chris took a picture, like a close up one of jasons face. hahaha. it was hilarious. and then i got a picture of chris like on the counter with like a piece of plastic of something and it was using that to tickle chris's nose. and like jason woke up and saw me laughing at him hahhahahha it was so funny. me and chris were like laughing and stuff. and then chris gave me a piggy back ride like around the restaurant. haha. tyler reminds me of chris. and they both said, your really light. as in weight. and yeah. but oh yeah, before, me chris and jason walked to speedway. we bought, well i bought, this like protein bar. it was like cookie dough, it was good. hahah. but yeah. yesterday was really fun :D


oh and i like fell asleep or something for twenty minutes. i missed singing happy birthday to grandma hahha i felt bad

hahaha today was hilarious

okay, so today in school. right after lunch, we were in the english room and mr. pogue wasnt in the room yet and jelani pantsed sam! hahahahaha, it was hilarious. what made it more funny was that sam was standing on a chair so like the whole class can see him in his boxers, hahahha. whew man that was funny. and what also was funny was, like mr pogue read us these sentences he made but he made a story. so like it was like cindy likes justin, but justin goes out with brynn. but he also likes dana brooke katy lexi or something like that. but he asked katlyn to go to the movies with him on saturday. and they kissed. hahahahhaha. and then in the end its like justin is a player. and justin has a problem. hahhaha that was funny. but when like mr pogue read cindy likes justin. i was like no! it should be cindy likes erik! and brynn and catherine were like yeahh! hahaha. but yeah. i loved today it was hilarious. but hahahahah okay so like i jumped on rachel at the end of the day when she was outside and we fell back. hahahahha. i fell on my left but cheek and my hand. and she fell on me. hahahhaha it was really funny. but yeah. she didnt get hurt so it was good. i wouldve felt bad if she got hurt. hahaha. but yeah. and so i went to burger king yesterday with cody henry jelani and jeremy. but like at five oclock, cody called me and was like okay im skateboarding to your house like right now, and im like um okay, even though were suppose to be there by like six thirty but whatever. so he came and got me and we walked to burger king. we got there at five thirty, hahah wow. an hour early. and then james texed me at 5:40 saying something about him not knowing if he could come or not. and so i called him. and i was like you should come to burger king! and he was like hah why? and i was like because you should come for my birthday and plus, it would be less awkward for me. and he was like how would it be awkward for you? and i was like because jeremys coming! and he was like well i dont know jeremy like that. and i was like sooo it would still be less awkward for me, and he was like hah okay ill ask my mom and dad to see if i can come and then yeah. then he couldnt come because jenny had a choir concert :[ oh welll. but yeah. me and cody just chilled. we walked across the street to speedway and yeah. got a drink and a 100 grand bar, haha. but yeah. then jeremy henry and jelani came.. yay. hahah just kidding. we went to burger king, i got my burger king hat, woo, and yeah. cody henry and jeremy left to go to wendys. and so i was with jelani. he ordered a pie? and french fries. hah. then we walked to wendys and jelani just like sat out there because he didnt want to go in wendys with burger king food haah

just a little weird...

KeepRunninJeremy (10:43:54 PM): You should call me in like 5 minuttes I'm super bored XDCiNdYXP (10:44:10 PM): oh im about to go to sleep soon sorry
KeepRunninJeremy (10:44:37 PM): oh okay haha
XDCiNdYXP (10:44:46 PM): ha yeah
XDCiNdYXP (10:45:23 PM): but im going to sleep now
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KeepRunninJeremy (10:45:31 PM): Nighty night

yeahhhh, just a little weird. but today was fine. jelani like did something to our quarterbacks shoulder and now hes like really pissed at himself :[
but i think i got his mood up, i mean after a while, he was back to his normal self :D so yeah im happy. well he seemed like himself. maybe he just wasnt showing it. but im pretty sure i brought his mood up so yeah. but tomorrow burger king with people? hopefully :D haha yeah, but yeah okay bye?

birthday party was awesome!

it was really fun, my party! henry alissa jelani and catherine went. we ate and yeah. but yup. it was just really fun, hahah. we took like pictures and stuff. haha. but yeah. henry gave me a shitty card, hahaha but twenty bucks, and jelani got me a cool looking card, but ten bucks. hahah. but yeah. i got a cake and stuff from olive garden. i thought it was free, but really, its six bucks. oh well. i ended up having to pay only 90 bucks but fifteen dollars, plus tipping. but yeah it was really fun. i got the five cheese ziti al forno. it was yummy, as always. except it tasted better the last time i ate it. haha maybe because it was my first time trying it last time? haha i dunno. but yeah. the cake was yummy. the people sang happy birthday to me, it was funny. hahah. but yeah. oh and of course, i cried today. because of my fucking mom, oh well whatever. then catherine and alissa left. so me and henry and jelani were just hanging out. hahaha henry and jelani ditched me! and i have a video of this. and im like running after them, hahaha. but yeah. oh and in the beginning of the video, henry was poledancing. hahahah, i love him. but yeah. then jelanis mom took me home. and jelani and henry walked me up to my house door. and yeah. haha :D it was really sweet and fun. i loved it. im pretty happy from it. but when i got home, i was just blah, hahah. but yeah okay bye, goodnight.

just got off the phone with jeremy

wow, i just got off the phone with jeremy. i was on the phone for an hour and twenty five minutes... damn. but i didnt really go to kings island... okay so jelani fucking fell asleep. like dude i called him like literally fifteen times, no joke. hahaha. but yeah. so then alissa called at seven asking to go to kings island. and i was like uhm i was going to go with jelani and james but i dont think jelanis going anymore and james might still be going. so we were thinking of people to invite to come. we called catherine, but she fucking rejected my call. so yeah. then we called james, and i asked him about going to feafest and he was like well im not exactly home, because im in a party kinda thing so yeah, and he wasnt going to get home anytime soon so i was like oh okay well ill talk to you later then, bye and yeah. so then me and alissa were just going to go but she cant since shes fucking grounded. so yeah. and then me and her were on the phone for like around four hours. hahah. we were talking about hot guys and stuff :D but yeah. and then i was on the phone with jeremy, because he told me to call him. and yeah.omg, we were talking about liking people and he was surprised that i only went out with one person and never had my first kiss and stuff. and then he was asking who ive liked and i said ive only liked three people. and i told him cody and travis. and i was like i cant tell you the third person and he was like please and stuff and i was like well if i told you it was henry, would you believe me? and he was like i dunno, haha. but yeah. and then he told me who he like liked i think but i wasnt really listening haha. and then he was like im not going to tell you the third person because you wont tell me your third person and i was like okay, and yeah haha. i really didnt care. watch it be me too, haha just kidding. but yeah. oh and jayden cant fucking go to my fucking party. so now its me catherine alissa jelani and henry hahaha. i invited alissa and was saying how i need one more guy and she said henry and henry said he might be able to go and yeah. yup im excited for it! :D

awh it was the last football game

yesterday was the last home football game :[ it was not the greatest, i can tell you that. but it was fun at times. it started getting more fun near the end. hahahahah dude i fell! like omg, the bleachers we were on, like we were standing on the part your suppose to sit on and it kept leaning back, and so i was like leaning back because of it and brynn and jayden were like omg cindy and brynn like pushed me forward, and like i ran in to james and someone else and fell into the part where your suppose to stand and i was just laying there laughing and my head down. hahahah. everyone was like omg cindy are you alright?! cause they thought i was like crying, hahahah. it was hilarious! hahaha. but yeah. and like i fell a couple times, just not as bad as that. haha, and oh yeah cody had skittles, and like i put my hand on like his skittles or his hand or something and he pulled back making me like leep/jump whatever to his way, hahah. but he gave me skittles, after i gave him a piece of gum, haha. but yeah. then this started becoming more fun, because i was with the guys, but i felt really bad for jayden, because it was jayden then me and then sam. and sam was like switch spots with me, so i did and so him and jayden were sitting next to each other and like jayden was thinking of breaking up with him... and i think she still is today so yeah.... but lets just see how that goes. and today hopefully kings island? ha yeah but yup not much else to say so bye? but wait oh yeah me and everyone else didnt do the thing on our stomach because like lots of people just bailed out haha so yeah and plus it was cold.

hello

im so excited for tomorrow! since its the last home game, me alissa jayden catherine claire rebecca and brynn are going to lift our shirts to show our belly, paint it red, and like have a letter on our stomachs, and spell VIKINGS, were so cool :D but im excited haha. but in a week, its my birthday! woo! :D im looking forward to it, ahah. but yeah, saturday, hopefully kings island? with jelani! and peeps, ahha i dunno. and on sunday, my birthday party kinda thing :D im excited for it. haha. but yeah nothing really to talk about so bye!

hahahah, we messed up in our own concert!

welll, we were singing, and i guess we got confused so we messed up in our choir concert and a lot of people laughed, including me. hahah, it was funny. and like alissa was like WOO CINDY! and everything, it was hilarious, i was cracking up on stage. and we had to sing a song named cindy, haha yeah i know, and alissa sang like a part of it, it was funny. haha. but yeah. today in school, i went to scarlet oaks for a tour of it. it was pretty fun, well just a little. probably better than going to first and second bell. so yeah. but in gym, me alissa rebecca and brynn just kinda skipped it. like we werent planning to, since we came back from scarlet oaks like ten minutes after third bell started and the people who went to scarlet oaks yesterday didnt need to do gym so we thought we didnt so yeah. but today was the best gym class ever. we had a lot of fun taking pictures and stuff. haha :D but yeah. oh haha, yesterday i asked james for some more bracelets and he did bring them in today. haha, i got like five more, woo! haha :D but yeah. also dude, me and sam were probably on the phone for four hours. not like a whole conversation that went for four hours straight. but added up, probably about four hours. so it was me sam and jayden on the phone. then sam left. me and jayden. and then jayden left. and so i had no one to talk to. then i called jayden because sam told me to, but she was going to sleep so yeah. then sam called me. and then we called anna, she didnt pick up, and then we called brynn. we were on the phone for like twenty minutes. sam left. so it was just me and brynn, and then brynn had to leave because her phone was about to die. so then i was like alone again. haha. and then sam called again. and then we called james since it was like eleven at the time and we didnt really know anyone else that was awake and we only knew he was awake because me and him were texting. but yeah. so we were on the phone and talked about stufff. and then like sam hung up on me, and i got like startled or something and i accidently clicked the red button, hanging up on james, hahah. and so then i called sam and james back, and me and james blamed everything on sam. hahah. and then we talked more. sam went to sleep.and then it was just me and james, and james hung up, and so then i texted him and was like thanks for hanging up on me, haha. and he was like i didnt one of you guys did and i was like oh probably a dropped call then and yeah. we stopped talking on the phone at like 12. and so then me and him were like texting for thirty minutes but i fell asleep. hahah. but yup. oh i went to greaters afterwards with rachel abby and anna but we met up with jada mayson katy natalie and dana there. but it was fun, haha.

oh i forgot

i forget to say that yesterday after we rode son of beast. we were going to the bathroom, and before we went in, james just threw his bag over to us, i get expecting us to take it since he didnt want to take it to the bathroom with him? so brynn took it, and then we went in the bathroom, did our hair, and yeah, and then i took his bag out, and we walked up to them, since they were already outside waiting, and then anna took his bag, and went to the girls bathroom, and then put his bag in there and came out. and then anna came back to our group. and then we started walking, and then brynn was like so james, wheres your bag? and he looked back, and then looked at us, and was like "you bitches" haha. and then james and travis was like whered you guys put it? and then they were like oh you put it in the girls bathroom didnt you? and so then this one little girl came out of the bathroom, and james like bent his knees and put his hands on them, and was like "can you geh" and she walked away before he finished! hahaha he scared her. and then i have a video of this, but this one girl who was going to the bathroom, travis asked her to get it and she got it and yeah. hahah it was funny though. good times :D

okay well,

i dont really like james, anymore, i still like him, but not as much so thats good. but i made ten cookies for jelani, two for james, and one for cody on jaydens birthday and gave it to them on jelanis birthday. i also wrote a really like emotional kind of letter thing to jelani for his birthday. but yeah. on friday, catherine was suppose to come over to my house, but she threw up... so yeah and alissa was suppose to to but she got grounded and she was about to break up with henry at my house, if she came... but yeahh, so i didnt even do anything that day.but on saturday, it was really confusing. so it was going to be me anna cody dylan travis and james, but cody couldnt go since his mom has a party thing, and so then me and anna needed a ride since cody was suppose to give us a ride. so then i asked my dad if he could give us a ride and he said maybe so yeah. and then anna couldnt go, so i didnt like want to go alone to kings island so i asked james if i could just go over to his house, and we could all go to kings island together, well me travis and james, not dylan. and he was like i guess. so yeah. and then james was like oh bad news, and i was like what? and he was like i dont have a ride. so then james and travis didnt have a ride. and travis told me that cody could go if i could give him a ride. and i really didnt want cody to go, so i was like my dad said he would only pick up you and james, or just cody, and travis was like beg, and i was like i already did, which i really didnt, hahah. but yeah. and i called dylan if he could give travis and james a ride, but he wasnt even going because he got in trouble. and then anna could come again but she needed a ride so of course i would give her a ride. and then brynn was coming but she also needed a ride. so i was like um can brynn go to your house anna and i can just pick up both of you. and so thats what we did. and then i was trying to get in touch with james because he didnt know i was giving him a ride, so i called him like threee times, and texted him once saying hey call me. haha, and then i called his house phone, and his mom said he;s allll the way in the back of the yard doing yardwork with his dad, so i was like oh okay well can you tell him to call me and she was like yeah and yeah. then he called me and i told him i could give him a ride and yeah, so yeah, hahah. then i went to pick up anna and brynn, and anna was like hey were all wearing blue! haha, and then i was like haha yeah, and i was like im going to text james and ask him if hes wearing blue, and he was like ha yeah, and i was like woah weird, were all going to wear blue, besides travis because i didnt know at the time. so then we went to pick up james, and yeah. before he came in we were all like talking and stuff, and then when james came, it was all awkard, and quiet, haha. but yeah. then i was like james do you know where travis lives? and he was like uh kinda, and i saw like sixth street, and i guess the street after that street was seventh? but i totally passed it and was like a minute down the road pass the turn. we were on like school street and travis was like explaining to me and i was like I DUNNO, hahha. and then we went back and i saw seventh street, and then finally we found travis's house. hahaha. it was so hard, we were like lost for five minutes, haaha. but yeah, and then it was all quiet again, when travis came in. haha, and then yeahhh, we went to kings island and yupp. we rode son of beast. travis and anna, me and brynn, and james all by himself. hahah. i took a picture when me and brynn were on it, and james was like in the background. and then i turned back and tried to take a picture of him, but he kept covering his face with his hands, so i just took a video of it. hahah. and then like we were about to go down the hill, and i was like FUCK MY CAMERA! but i got it in my pocket and zipped it up on time, hahaha. but it was funny. haha and then after the ride we went to loook at our pictures, and then like james's picture got blurred out because he had his middle finger up, hahah. but yeah. after that we met up with mac, and yeah.then we walked around a lot, and then me anna and brynn were in line for this one haunted house kinda thing with pirates. we thought travis james and mac ditched up because like they were taking a long time just to get "funnel cake" but yeah. then they finally came back, and was like trying to rub it in our face that they had funnel cake. ew, mac had this one thing it was like a fried oreo kinda thing and i was like ew that looks so discusting, and they were like its good. but yeah. then we were going into the house thing. and of course, i was first. it was me, brynn, anna, travis, james, and mac. i had like no clue where to go. brynn had to lead me, when we went in the house, it was like really dark, and i was like its a wall right here! and brynn touched the wall like right of it and i was like cindy here! and i was like ohhh! and like i almost when out of an exit, because i thought it was an exit, hahaha. but yeah. it was pretty scary. i mean some of them really popped out of nowhere. and one of them, i thought they were fake, but they were real. haha. i screamed kinda a lot, not like a lot though, but it was scary.and then we were chilling i guess again, and then james and mac ditched us! them bitches! so then me anna travis and brynn rode adventure express. it was a long line dude. but yeah. after that we kept calling james and mac, and i kept asking where are you guys, and they were like were not telling and yeah. lames. and then brynn found them. and we like ran, and travis was like texting and then saw us run and was like what?! ahhah funny. and then they were like oh we were at the arcade and i got some bracelets, and i was like oh i want some. and then i was like james, you should give me some more,. hahah. but yeah. and then like i think we rode vortex. me and brynn, anna and travis, and mac and james. i took a picture again and mac was in the background, and i tried to take a picture of james but again he put his hands in front of his fucking face, haha but yeah. and then anna me and brynn ditched them but running away right when anna gave travis his phone, and like only travis was running after us. hahaha dude me and anna ran into so much people. hahah. but yeah. then we just ran into travis and was like dude you have my pass! and that was the only reason i was running after you guys, and we were like oh, since it was about timme for him to go, haha, so we just chilled more, and we spent most of the time finding a bathroom for me and anna since we had to pee really badly. but yeah. then travis had to go. like when we hugged he lifted me up and then like dropped me and my but like landed on the hay/car, since there was like hay shaped box where you can sit on right next to a car that was there, and yeah there was a big sound that made and they were like ooo,haha but yeah then anna and travis hugged and kissed and yup. then me and anna and brynn went to the bathroom again. this time for brynn. haha. and then we went to buy fries. and to rub it in macs and jamess faces.but we barely had that much french fries left when yeah, but oh yeah before that, when it was me travis anna and brynn, we ran into amy, dana, taylor, alton, shelton. hah. but when we were going to drop zone since thats where mac and james were we found meredith. and then after it, we found jenny too because she was on drop zone while james and mac were too. and then james's best friend curtis joined our group and yeah. we chilled more. haha. okay so we went to buy ice cream but james and mac got theres for free! so unfair, and i had to pay for annas because she didnt have money and yeah. but that was lame, and i think curtis got ice cream too, and he had to pay for his too. and yeah. then we went to sit down and yeah.then we walked more i guess. then we went on this thing called monster. me and anna, and james and mac. brynn didnt want to ride it. so yeah. after that we rode racers, brynn didnt ride it again. me and anna took bad pictures of ourselves on it, hahah. but yeah. after that we like left. well we waited for macs little brother brett, and then left. and then i hugged mac, brynn, and james because macs mom was taking them home. and i was taking anna home. we were like barely talking, but still talking because we were so tired. haha. but yeah. then she went home and i went home and yeah.but hahah i jumped on everyone except anna, cause i know she wouldve definately fall. but yeah. at first i just jumped on travis, i like sorta missed, because i like fell to the side. haha, taking him down with me. but yeah. then i jumped on mac, that didnt work, he was wayyyyy tooo tall, hahah.and i jumped on brynn and she just crumpled, hahah. and lastly, i jumped on james, my ear hit his head, and that hurted a lot, hahahah, but it was fun jumping on like everybody, hahahahah :D i had a great time

he said he likes you as a friend and nothing more

is what sam said that james said about me. i can feel my tears, almsot coming out.... .gosh. i can get through this... theres way more guys out there. wow im about to cry,..okay now i am crying...okay, ill get through it. but anyways, today is jaydens birthday. tomorrow is jelanis. and yeah. well im going to go i guesss....bye, hopefully ill get over him

okay welll

okay so on wednesday, justin and matt prank called me, and it was so obvious it was them, so i was like you know i know who this is right? and theyre like who? and i was like justin and matt and matt was like no its jamie and i was like what? and he said james irwin, but i just hung up since i knew it wasnt james and plus he had a football game that day, hah. but yeah, and i was like omg, of all people, why did they say james? and i started getting pissed at like matt cause i thought matt told justin that i like james. so then me jayden and catherine were on the phone. and catherine was like omg i would be so pissed at matt if he told you and such, and she was like okay so ill call matt later and ask him about it then ill text you and yeah. matt then, an hour later, called saying he was like and i was like um its okay and you probably told justin about james didnt you? and he said no i didnt i fucking swear on my life and such,and i was like okay i believe you. and then he told me that justin wanted matt to say "i dont love you" acting like james. but matt said that he said "no justin, thats too mean" so yeah. but omg i felt pissed when i heard that. and i told james about it too. i was like justin and matt called me acting like it was you because justin found out i like you and i told him about the i dont love you thing. and he was like wow hes a bitch, referring to justin, haha, and he also called him a fag so yeah. but then on thursday, sam and justin were fucking throwing crap at me, i got pissed. so then on friday. i told mr. pogue and he talked to them, hahaha. but yeah. okay so on friday. we went to the vineyard trip. and dude a lot of people cried. like at first it was fun since we were like playing games and such hahha. and then it became depressing because like they asked you serious questions. and i was litterally one of the first people that cried. because we had to get into this group and talk about like a hard time in life and i talked about sixth grade and how i wanted to commit suicide. and yeah.... then we had to tell our partners our life story and eat lunch. i had taylor right... but anyways, we had this thing, where you crossed the line, if it refers to you, and omg, this was when a lot of people fucking cired.... especially catherine and everybody! it was so sad... like lexi broke down crying when they said cross the line if you lost a loved one, and she lost her dad when she was like nine, so yeah.. and alissa didnt cross the line when it was like cross the line if you got to act like a kid, when you were a kid. and that just made me really upset. and victoria crossed a lot of ones. it was so sad. brynn even cried. and so did kersker! omg, it was just alltogether really sad. jelani teared up :[ but yeah jonathan cried.. yeah basically everybody cried. but yeah. after that people apologized to people. like ew, justin apologized to me... i said its cool, so me and him are aquaintances.... but hahahah travis was like im sorry for tripping you the other day, like okay i was running in gym and so was he so i went up to him and was like hey travis while i was still running, and he tripped me and i fell like hard, hahahah. but ew my knees look so discusting... but yeah. and then yesterday jayden picked me up and we went to the game. it was like 28-21 against lakota west! woo! :D but this game wasnt really that fun, like it was fun, but not the best or worst but then after the game i went to catherines, she fell asleep like ten minutes after we got to her house. and like dude i fell asleep and then i woke up around like three something and like literally, a minute later, tyler gutierrez texted me saying sorry i fell asleep and i just woke up and i was like omg same! cause i did just wake up. and then like we texted a little, and then went back to sleep. and then he texted me at eight something saying he woke up. but i woke up like twenty minutes after that, it was so weird. we woke up around like the same time! haha yeah. i chilled at catherines for a while. when i was about to get my things and i noticed my keys were missing. me and catherrine looked for the keys for twenty minutes. couldnt find them, so then catherines dad found it in like ten minutes. went home, showered, and yeah. then rachels mom came pick me up to go to kings island with anna rachel brynn travis and james, but we met william and rebecca there... so they just like joined the group... but yeah. and then we rode son of beast, and of course, i had to sit next to james, it was awkard when it was just us two, cause we didnt really have much to say. hahah. but yeah. then we went on this mirror trail thing near firehawk. it was really like a big blur, like it seemed like a dream cause like there was so much flashing haha. but yeah. it was anna then rachel, me, travis, and some others. but i screamed a lot. and i lost my voice haha. but yeah. then after that, we got on this other trail in the woods near firehawk. it wasnt really that scary, but somewhat scary. omg hahahha james lost his sandal in this tunnel thing that we had to go crawl through. like it was people. and then me, rachel, then james. and i waited for rachel to get out of the tunnel, and she got out, then we walked, and i was like wait wheres james, and he came out and was like dude i just lost one of my sandals, hahah dude that really sucks, he was just walking with his socks and one sandal, hahahah. after that, we rode flight of fear. i rode with rachel, haha. and then we like went to the food court kinda place. chilled there for some time. and then travis had to go, but rebecca and william already left us. so yeah. so it was just me james rachel anna and brynn, hahahah james was the only dude. after that, we rode delirium, i sat next to james, and anna. and after that we went to this clown thing. it was like rachel, me, james, and then anna, and like anna ran up to me and rachel and so i just let anna be in front of me. oh and brynn didnt go because she didnt want to. but it was fun. even though rachel led us into a like cellar, hahaha. but i liked it a lot. oh and before we went into the thing, and we were just waiting in line. james found a bag of popcorn, and rachel was like ill pay for eighty five cents if you eat it, and he did and she gave him it, and he was like this is good popcorn, ate some more, then like two minutes after he ate it, he was like this is discusting popcorn, hahah, and he was like it was all soggy and stuff. but yeah. after the clown thing, james left, i didnt give him a hug, but yeah. then me brynn rachel and anna went to larosas, i got breadsticks and then we walked to the dropoff zone and yeah. oh i saw jenny! and i saw miranda and meredith together! haha :D but yeah. and so then i came home and yeah. but omg, james doesnt go out with taylor anymore, i dunno the reason, but yeah. and omg so many people go out now, dylan and sarah, jelani and tyler, anna and travis!, kyle and brooke, and i think thats it... but yeah ew.... but okay bye, haha :D

ummm,

i dont think i mentioned this... haley found out i was on the phone with tyler, her boyfriend, so she was like why did tyler call you, hes not telling me why, and i was like uhm because he was bored and matt shelton called him too? and she put oh thats super creepy hahaha, and i put haha, and then she was like okay i got to go love you bye, and i was thinking wow, why she actually all nice and crap.. but when she told tyler she had to go, she was like okay i got to take a shower, go talk to cindy or something, mannnn, more drama between me and her, but i dunno. now everythings fine,.. so its good. but kings island saturday with cody travis and james? hopefully. and football game saturday! :D woo go princeton! hopefully we win against lakota west.. but today, nothing really went on, so yeah cant really say anything, besides sams a bitch, because he was like oh this is what cindy looked like when she was a baby and it was like an ugly deformed baby but whatever sam, your ugly, with your fucking haircut, so yeah. jayden thinks your ugly too, so OH! ha just kidding, but she does thinks hes ugly sooo.... yeahh. anyways i had a social studies project that i worked on today and hopefully ill finish tomorrow in school? so yeah, okay im tired bye.

man i havent wroten in a while...

okay so at the day of the football game, jayden came over my house, and brynn came over, but from what i can remember, i texted james saying hey and he said hey and then i said whats up and he said like just got done with football and i said cool and he said yeah you and i was like nothing much and he was like cool and i was like yeah but can i ask you something and he was like well depends what it is and i was like well why didnt you want me and sam to know what you and sam were talking about on sunday and he said because i have a girlfriend and i was like ooh okay... and he was like yeah sorry and i was like its alright, sorry for making things awkard, and he said its cool and yeah after that we didnt really like talk about anything important... so yeah. but yeah, i was like a little sad... from what i can remember. if i was by myself i probably wouldve cried but since i was with jayden and brynn, i didnt cry, but i was a little sad, and jayden was like awhhh cindy, i feel so bad and stuff, but i was fine.. ha yeah. i did cry like some other day, just a little bit though so yeah. but that night at the game, i barely talked to james, like a little, not that much. like i was talking to gilkey about how jayden and sam barely talk and theyve been going out for almost two weeks and james was like what? and i was like oh were talking about how sam and jayden barely talk, and how theres a big silence if i dont come up with anything to say. and he was like well you didnt talk much when it was me you and jelani, and i was like oh well thats cause i had nothing to really say. and i was like well ill talk way more next time to make up for it and he was like alright cool and yeah. but other than that... we didnt win the game :[ it was against colrain which is supposesably like the best football team in our like division or something so yeah. but i gave james a hug and like everyone else one. it doesnt feel as awkard now, but i know i still like him. but omg, on sunday, like the powers went off and it was so fucking windy! like wowwwow.i texted until my phone died... it was so lammmme. that it died. i texted a lot of people too.. so yeah. but then i was like on the phone with jelani and then jelani and travis and then just jelani. like before, when i was just on the phone with jelani, i heard like noises like hitting my house, but then like right when travis got off the phone, i heard serious knocking, and i was like omg jelani im not even kidding theres someone knocking on my door, and he was like i told you cindy, hes coming to get you and i was like omg jelani stop it and omg im seriously crying right now but i said that while i was like laughing kinda, and he laughed and was like no your not, and i was like okay im not, but like tears are litterally coming out, and then the person opened the door, and i was like omg jelani they just opened the fucking door, and i said fuck like five times, and then he was like go see who it is, and im like no jelani! and then i was like hold on, let me see if its my dad, and i yelled DAD?! and he was like yeah? and i was like oh jelani its my dad, and he started laughing and yeah, haha. but yup. then jelani got off the phone and then i went to sleep and yeah. monday? i was on the phone with a couple of people. like jennifer, ivy, stacie, jelani and maybe jayden? im not sure. but yeah. me and jelani called james.... and of course, he didnt answer, hahah. :D but yeah. that day was boring i remember. then on tuesday i guess i turned on my phone and yeah i started texting tyler guitierrz because he sent me a message and then he was like oh me saif and matt shelton tried to call you yesterday but like your phone was off and i was like hah yeah, and then he calls me, and i was on the phone with him until jennifer and andys mom came and picked me up. then when i got to there house, of course, i charged my phone and texted like everyone! hahah, yeah but yup, then i played like mario kart with jennifer michael and kevin and it was fun, but got tiring. and yeah. then i sleptover, and yeah. i didnt really do anything. i left wednesday morning, and supposesably i had power that morning, but when i got back, i did not, it was a fucking bummer, but whatever. i had school the fucking next day too! it was so lameeee! but yeah, i talked on the phone that day too, i guess. hahah. then i had school the next morning and yeah. i finally got my power back like thursday morning so that was good, but yeah. and i only had two days of school that weeek, so haha its cool. and yeahhh... on friday i was on the phone with jelani, and we called james, i actually talked like way more! like im not even kidding, so yeah its coool :D yupp. BUT EW his dog toby ate his cat D: its horrible, ewww, and he was like talking about how much he loved toby like two weeks ago too.. i feel so bad for his cat. and his cat was like old too :[ but yeah. then on saturday jayden was suppose to come over but she fuckign didnt gosh, i couldve went to kings island with travis and cody. they were like trying to get me to go and i was like i dunno if jayden can even come over or not yet, and her phone was busy so yeah. but she couldnt and it was too late for cody to pick me up so whatever. they kept trying to make me go and i was like why cant you and cody just go?! and travis was like because cody can only go at 2:30 and i can only go at 3 o clock and cody would be there by himself for thirty minutes. and cody was like travis just come over my house, and i was thinking like why cant cody just go over your house right now? and then you two can go to kings island together and they were like OHHHHHHHHHH that makes sense. gosh there such dumbasses. hhhaha but i love them anyway :D hahah yeah. but omg cody and jillian are going out.... but i thought him and jillian are only going out because cody wanted a girlfriend but whatever. me and travis were like talking a lot over the weekend, kinda, yeahhh.oh jayden and sam actually talked way more on friday, cause i was like hold on,,, a lot of the times and heard what they were saying on speaker and yeah. hahha. but omg sam is fucking pissing me off, like okay. on friday, in advisory i asked sam for a piece of gum, and he was like, its my last piece but later on he gives me one, and i was like i thought you only had one piece left and he was like well i didnt give you one because justin wouldve gotten mad at me, what the fuck sam. gosh i was kinda mad at him but whatever. and like on the phone friday, i guess i made this sound and he was like do you hear that sound, and was like stop making that sound cindy, and he kept talking about that sound, and it got so fucking annoying.so i was like okay sam, if you want me to stop making that noise, then ill get off the phone, and you can jayden can just call eachother, i got like pissed dude hahahah. but yeah, and he didnt even say anything back, hahahah lame! but yeah. since him and jayden cant just talk on the phone, just them too, since there too "scared" but whatever. so yeahhh. today at school, i taught jelani and jayden how to make stars, hahah :D yup. im trying to make a star necklace out of paper stars, its kinda working out, but i dunno, i poked myself three times with a needle :[ it hurts, ahah, so yeah. oh and ewww, jeremy said he could get far with me if he wanted to, WHAT THE FUCK?! me and him are going to go nowhere, ew hes so discusting. oidubhoadbvoabv but yeah. oh yeah me cade chris ivy stacie jennifer mandy and jason are going to go to olive garden sometime. i just dont know when. some sunday since thats the only day chris can go, due to his olive garden thing. so yeahh. and im going to my cousin kens wedding on sunday! i didnt even know he was getting married until today! but yeah. on friday, its band night, and football game against lakota west! WE BETTER FUCKING WIN! so yeahhh. on saturday, im going to kings island with james travis and maybe rachel? hopefully rachell.... so yeah :D im going to go now, peace ☮

so far today....

so i cried a little and yeah... like brynn showed me a picture of james since she didnt know that sam told me yesterday that james didnt like me, but i was like almost crying when she showed me a picture of him. i was like yeah brynn you dont need to show me pictures of him. and then when i got my stuff out of my locker i walked into my class, and went straight to catherine, hugged her for sometime while i was crying then i told her what happened and stuff. she was like yeah james can be a real bitch sometimes. but its really not his fault that i like him, and not his fault he doesnt like me, but yeahh. i was sad there. and jelani didnt come to school, like i kept looking at the clock every thirty seconds and looked up when i saw someone at the doorway. but then he came 20 minutes late so it was goood. but yeah. i dunno. how i feel at all, really. i know i like james for sure, just that yeah. i need to stop liking him. ill get over it eventually, i dunno if im going to give him a hug though at the football game, itll just be really weird.... but i dunno... i need to talk to jelani at eight something, since he has a game today, hopefully we'll win... but yeah. i really want james to text me tonight though. and then ill ask him why he was mad at sam on sunday for telling me he didnt like me, when sam didnt really tell me, until yesterday, obviously... but yeah. i want to ask him why he didnt want me to know. and how eventually i wouldve found out.. but yeah. i will be scared, but hopefully ill be on the phone at that time. i dunno, but im going to make cookies and take a shower so byee.

wow today balanced eachother out...i guess.

okay, lets start from one of the most interesting things of today. its cades and hannahs birthday! :) woo! haha. but okay, so in mr. pogues english class, me catherine and jelani had to work on this one project thing. and jelani was wearing his basketball sweats today. he like pulled them way up so catherine was like jelani! pull your pants down, and i started laughing like haha catherine thats funny, and then she started laughing and then somehow we started laughing so hard that my cheeks started hurting so i got up from my seat and was like ow i cant stop laughing and smiling my cheeks hurt so freaking much! and i was like jumping and stuff like having a tandrum, but not really a tandrum. haha. but yeah. and then like i just like sat on the ground and i like moved my head back and hit the back of my head against the table thing, and then jelani started laughing and catherine laughed more. and then i started like squealing every second, hahahah it was so hilarious! and then i started crying and catherine and jelani laughed more since of my squealing. but omg we were laughing for soooo long. my abs hurted so much, so did my cheeks and throat! but omg, tears were literally coming out of my eyes! hahahaha, it was the hardest ive ever laughed in my whole life time! like im not even kidding! but omg then i went to get some tissues and yeah. everyone was looking at us, hahahah. but catherine was like omg i almost peed myself! hahahahah, ah man so flipping funny. jelani laughed kinda a lot but not as much as me and catherine, hahahaha. okay, but when i came home.... sam told me that james didnt like me anymore, so like i was like bawling for two hours. and jelani wasnt home. and jaydens phones like broken, so yeahhh. but i was crying for so long. ah, i hate when i get so fucking emotional! :[ but yeahhh. so then after talking to jelani about it, i got a lot better. like im not even kidding. we really didnt know what to talk about since i could barely speak and he didnt really know what to say, but somehow, it all worked out. so its all good. and then i was in an okay mood so yeah. and me and jelani talked a lot about stuff like usual so yeahhh. and then james, texted me. saying hey. i dunno if he like knows that he doesnt like me, but i dunno. but yeah, and i was like omg jelani, james just texted me, and jelani was like are you serious?! and i was like yeah i dunno what to say my hands are like all sweaty and he was like well atleast reply to him. and i did. then we texted eachother a couple times. but then like jelani decided to call him. so we called him using a private number like three times haahah. then jelani left him a message. but yeahh. then at nine oclock, me and jelani called him with my cell phone, no private. and yeah. jelani and james talked for like some time. i BARELY talked. but i kinda tried my best so it was all good. and then jelani had to get off so it was just me and james. which was so awkard but i tried not to make it awkard so i tried to keep the conversation going. it was just me and him for five minutes. we didnt have any huge pauses so it was good :) im happy. but yeah, then he had to go do his homework cause his mom said so so i said bye and yeahhh. but today was practically a rollercoaster. i dunno. i was really sad and crap, but im glad i can go to sleep happy hahah so yeahhh. :D but late start tomorrow! woo! :) so yeah byeeee.

ah yesterday was so funn! :)

alright, so lets start from yesterday after school. i rode the bus home with jayden. there was are a lot of mexicans on her bus, haha. the only person i really knew was rebecca, and she doesnt seem to like her bus. but anyways... when i got to her house, we didnt really do anything? but we walked to the gas station which was really close to her house. i bought mini muffins, three cookies n cream hershey bars, hahah yeah i know right?, a pack of oreos, and some chex mix. when i got to her house, i ate my muffins, and chex mix, and half of a bar of cookies n cream hershey bar. ooo, i shouldnt have done that because i didnt eat anything besides doritos and thats it. but anyways, yeah. oh yeah sam texted me saying that he got fucking grounded! so we couldnt go to the movies for today, a saturdayy! i was pretty bummed, but atleast theres a next time? hopefully. but hes grounded for this weekend. but he couldnt go to the football game either, and jayden was sad :[ but the football game was helllla fun. like okay, i was like looking at my camera screen, like using it as a mirror to see if my makeup and stuff was smeared, and then james thought i was taking a picture so he like posed right in front of it and i was like OH, you want me to take a picture of you? and he was like nah its alright and i was like awh come on, and he kept blocking his face with his hands, and i couldnt move them since one of my hands had a camera, but i tried moving his hands with one of my hands but that didnt really work so yeahh, but i got a picture of him and the group of guys so its good. oh and before that, like the beginning of the football game i was like oh we should take a group photo! and he was like hesistant, haha i saw it, he was about to go and then he didnt. but then he went up, and i was like happy, hahha. but yeah, i'll post it on the post like after all my writing. but me and james kinda talked alot. like kinda little actually. but more than usual. and i saw him looking at me like a lot, hahaha, but i didnt want to make eye contact. haha so yeahhh. but omg, the guys, okay so they lifted up there shirts and each dude had a letter or number or whatever. and they spelled WARE#11 hahah. james was the W he was looking at me when i was taking the pictures of the guys/ mmm, ahahah just kidding, but his six pack is sexy and yeahhh haha. and i gave people the cookies n cream hershey bar. like a square of it because i told him i would give him some and he was like this is the shit, and i was like haha yeah i know! hhaha :) oh and cody, he like poked my head and i looked back, and like um okay, in a kidding way, and then i saw he had an airhead thing so i asked for some of it and of course he gave it to me. but oh yeah, on thursday, i talked to him on aim.... i was like do you like sarah smith and he was like no i dont. and i was like oh then who do you like? and he was like okay cindy,for real, not to be anxious of anything, but do you like me? and i told him i kinda like someone else, but i felt like a bitch! again with this.... but yeah. and then he asked hows life and i said okay you? he said terrible, and i was like oh crap i hope its not me.. but i dont think it is. sooo yeah. oh and william finally shaved his mohawk! and his hair is like soooo soft, hahaha, yeah i know. me and him are like tight now, so its all goood :) aha yuppp, but like at the end of the game, i hug like everyone. but when i was hugging henry i like accidently fell, hahah, yeah i know. but then i hugged james who was next to henry and i gave him the rest of two bars of cookies and cream :) and like as i was walking out i found jenny! and i was hanging with her and james was too, and jennys going to be the mascot for the next game which is nine eleven! and james is going to be the mascot after that! hahaha, yeahh, but i was like bye! and he was like bye! woo! ;) but yeah it was fun. and jayden came over, and we like yeah chilled, i was texting james for a lot of the time :) but yeah. and today when i woke up, me and jayden and we watched one missed call but we didnt get to fucking finish it because the video wont fucking load, but whatever. im going to go now, bye, but the football game was really fun.

ugh today was stupid

fucking haley! dude, okay, soo it was lunch, and when i sat down dannie was like uhm do you like jeremy? and i was like um no? and then she was like okay and had that like whatever face! what the fuck bitch?! how would you know who i like?! cause i really dont like him. since i like james and all, but yeah. it was so gay, and then me and catherine would whisper about like stuff, yeah and haley and dannie were definitely talking about me and catherine. it was so obvious. and haley before lunch was like omg i love your hair, but then at lunch catherine heard her say cindys hair looks like theres puss coming out of it, omg she fucking pisses me off. and she told jeremy about me saying i was doing my social studies instead of going to the mall with him and he was like why did you lie to me, but whatever. im done. i want to have like nothing to do with jeremy or haley anymore. but i dunno if i should text jeremy or not when he texts. im just thinking of not texting him. cause haley and dannie thinks i like him. ughh its so fucking annoying. im so glad i didnt tell haley i liked james. but i told matt, he seems trustworthy and a good friend. but i dunno, and i talked to jenny on the phone today and i told her i liked james, her brother and she was like oh my gosh, nuh uh? and she was saying how shes going to get it out of him, on if he likes me or not, and how he said he was like excited or something to see mirrors but he didnt tell her who he was going with, but i told her me jayden and sam so yeah, haha so i got kinda happy from that. and she was like aww you guys would be such a cute couple and if you two get married, you will be like my sister in law, hahaha, yeah i wish i married him, hhaha just kidding. too soon to be deciding things like this. but yeah.and she was saying how he'll probably like me, well hopefully he does, but i dunno, she just totally gave me more self confidence so im happy now thinking of it just mad thinking of haley and crap. gosh, i really dont like her. and hahahah when me and catherine were on the phone today, all we did was talk shit about haley, it was funny, hahah. but yeah. she really needs to stop starting drama. like me and jeremy were just friends but she keeps calling me a stalker and crap, but whatever. im just going to ignore all this drama and shit.so yeah im pretty tired today so im going to go to sleep, peace/

heyy im like reallly hot

like ew burning and sweaty hot, its so discusting. but lets start from friday since i havent really posted in some time. okay so i gave people cookies on friday, since i made them on thursday, hehe i gave james one :) im like pretty happu from that ,haha. okay so i was going to jacob and james and there table. and i was giving a cookie to jacob, cause i told him i would and james was sitting next to him. i gave jacob one, then james put out his hand and i gave him one, and claire and nick cocco took one but i like didnt really care and omg so many people on like my table which is next to jacob and james table was like CINDY CINDY CINDY CINDY! i was like omg, i dont have that many cookies. which i didnt. i gave almost everybody that wanted one, except matt, who got kinda pissed. but i told him i would give him one later. and i was suppose to make them today and give him it tomorrow, but ohh wellls. ill just tell him i had social studies, haha. oh and then later on that day i went to the football game with catherine matt and claire. like the only people that went were jenny and meredith irwin! like nobody went. but we lost. but it was only because they took away our band and cheerleaders it was lammmme. oh and it was against centerville. and me claire and some seventh graders became cheerleaders! woo! and omg, i was sooo dumb, like each person said a letter and it was my turn and i was like I and claire was like its N and was like ohhh crappppp, hahahah, but yeah. but it was a fun night. i told claire i liked james that day, she seemed kinda sad, but she just didnt say she was so yeahhhh. so on saturday.... jeremy asked me to go to the mall with him cause he said he was like realllly bored, but i told him i had social studies to do, but i feel like really bad for saying that... cause later on that day i went to the reds game with miranda. front row seats baby! :) haha, i saw jonathon boyle there too! haha, and i met mr redlegs? the ball, haa yeah. oh and i went with miranda woedl and her dad. her dad like won or got tickets for free, something so it was cool, and later on we went to burger king and i ate there mozzerella sticks which were really good! haha, yeah. so yeah thats what i did for saturday. sunday, i had no plans really, until jayden called and she came over at sevenish, eightish, one of those. and omg we watched the mirrors trailer, and later on that night, we were screaming and crying and laughing, well i was when i looked at the mirror upstairs, i was like so scared but it was so funny at the same time hahaha, were such dimwits, but sam, is a boring person to talk to on the phone, like im not even kidding, theres like nothing to talk to him about. omg. but yeah, and sam didnt even try to calm us down when we were like screaming and so scared and crap! it was so lame! ugh hes mean. oh and before jayden came over that day, she called him and he answered like "what" in a mean pissed way,that was mean, and it was jayden that was calling him!! but whatever. me and jayden went to sleep around one thirty and woke up at nineish. haha. so now its monday, she tried a pineapple bun and she thinks its soo good, hahah its kinda funny. alissa likes pineapple buns too :) but yeah. oh yeah we pranked jeremy last night! hahahahah it was so fucking hilarious. jayden was talking and she was like hey im jamie and he was like yeah i dont know you, and then jayden was like i saw you at the middle school the one day you were at the middle school with henry, and you know me, but you dont know me, and i saw you at the football game, and you saw me, and i saw you, hahaha those were the things i remember her saying, hahaha, but it was sooo funnnny!. i was like laughing the whole time, and he was like so how did you get my number? and jayden was like alissa, and then jeremy was like oh yeah cindy gave alissa my number, and jayden was like dont you like not like alissa? and he was like yeah shes a bitch hahah, but yeah, prettty funnny. then he like just hung up on us i think. but then later on, i, myself called him cause he was like i bet you were the one who pranked called me, and i was like haha no do you want me to call to prove it? and he was like later, and i did, and he was like yeah you definitely dont sound like "jamie" and i was like told you then he said he'll just text me cause he wanted to skateboard, so yeahhhh. and today, monday,. i called jeremy and omggg, jayden was like going to say something about james and so i slapped her and i like literally fell off the bed! like hahahaaha it was so funny, i was crying and crap, omg, and he probably thought we were like crazy hahahaha, but omg we were laughing for like three minutes straight, it was so funny and our stomach hurted, haha. but yeah. and then we watched the movie sleepover, it was good even though ive seen it a lot, hahah since i own it. but then we walked to the movie, i only saw three hot guys, she saw six. but she thinks a lot of guys are ugly, like roy allen! he is buttttugly! like im not even kidding, he is so flipping ugly, just ew. but yeah, then we ate at little tokyo, and thne she went home, and i went home, and i fell asleep like six to eight thirty, and i finished my math homework and yeah ive been on the computer ever since then but i might go to sleep soon, probably not since ive already slept so yeah,, bye.

fucking mrs buckmeier

omg, okay today i was in a reallly bad mood like at school, i barely talked and yeah, i was just pissed and kinda sad.... like james didnt wave back at me, hopefully he didnt like see me, if he did see me and didnt wave, thats embarrasing... but yeah part of the reason why i was sad today and because of mrs fucking buckmeier! i realllly dislike her.okay so i forgot my planner? and it had my math and both my science homework in there and so i asked for a fucking extra math homework sheet thing and she said something like she doesnt make any extra copies, well fuck her, and she wouldnt let me go to mr rebilas's room because i didnt have a planner, and so i asked catherine if i could use hers and she was like no, you cant use other peoples planner, omg, i was like really pissed, so after those two things happened, i was like ugh! but yeah.i was pretty much very pissed. and i did cry when jelani asked me whats wrong like before lunch, and i saw mrs buckmeier like just a minute before that, so yeah, i just started crying and yeah... then i started flciking myself with my rubberband that i got from the football game when henry, jeremy, and cody were flinging them, but yeah i just flicked it like on my arm all of lunch cause i was just so effing pissed! gosh! then sam asked me whats wrong in english class, and i was like what do you think is the problem, and he was like, its not him is it?, and im like no, even tho part of it was... but yeah i know, im bad. but yeah. but i have like a feeling james is going to say no to me, and i know im going to cry, because i cried today just because he said he was confused, and he needs more time since him and taylor like broke up on august 16th or something, im not sure what happened but yeah.. im just scared, like really scared.i havent liked a person in a long time so yeah, but im seriously scared. just thinking about what happened between me and travis, i cried so fucking much because of him. oh my gosh, just thinking about it. wow. well it was like one of the first times ive actually liked someone a lot. i guess i liked cody a lot, but i dont think i cried as much about him as travis so yeah.and ive cried lets seee, two times so far because of james, so yeah. but like im not even kidding, im really scared about being rejected, im like really really scared, i think i might tell sam that.. but yeah.since yeah. but i really am, im about to cry because im so scared. yeah.... but yeah. anyways... ill just end it here i guess.

ah im so happy! :)

okay so yesterday, i told sam i liked james and told him not to tell anybody, but guess what, he tells james, but he seems to like me! ahh! im like really happy, hahah. but yeah, ive been thinking about him a lot and yeah, but omg. like last night, sam called at 11 30 ish and was like "uhm cindy im sorry but..." and i thought he was going to tell me that james didnt like me back, but instead he told me he was sorry for telling james that i liked him but im not mad at him for that ,since it so happens that james likes me back too, haha :) so yeah., but sam said that james wants to be single for now and he might either ask me out in one WEEK or two or one MONTH or two. sam forgot if he said week or month so yeah, but im still really happy haha. oh and like yesterday when i was trying to find out who he likes, sam was like damn rebecca, and i was like omg james likes rebecca?! and then sam put" imed me" and i was like omg sam you scared the crap out of me, haha, i was like literally scared, i was thinking like do they even talk and rebecca already has william and yeah, haha. oh and sam just asked me like ten minutes ago to ask james out and i was like uhm no girls dont ask guys out, and he was like well james doesnt ask girls out and i was like he doesnt? and sam said he never has. and i was like well i could be the first girl hes asked out :) so yeah im kinda happy with that, hahaha yeah if i was the first hes asked out, pretty cool :) but yeah, i might go to the movies with him, jayden, and sam, since jayden and sam are probably going to go out kinda soon, but i dunno. were going to go watch mirrors which is supposesably a good and scary movie. i have a feeling im going to like scream... hahaha. but yeah, hopefully the seating chart will be like, sam, jayden, me, and james :) haha yup. but man, i was kinda mad that i couldnt go to the princeton football game to watch james play :[ but oh well, its over with, haha. but yeah, and im actually kinda tired so im going to go.