fucking mrs buckmeier

omg, okay today i was in a reallly bad mood like at school, i barely talked and yeah, i was just pissed and kinda sad.... like james didnt wave back at me, hopefully he didnt like see me, if he did see me and didnt wave, thats embarrasing... but yeah part of the reason why i was sad today and because of mrs fucking buckmeier! i realllly dislike her.okay so i forgot my planner? and it had my math and both my science homework in there and so i asked for a fucking extra math homework sheet thing and she said something like she doesnt make any extra copies, well fuck her, and she wouldnt let me go to mr rebilas's room because i didnt have a planner, and so i asked catherine if i could use hers and she was like no, you cant use other peoples planner, omg, i was like really pissed, so after those two things happened, i was like ugh! but yeah.i was pretty much very pissed. and i did cry when jelani asked me whats wrong like before lunch, and i saw mrs buckmeier like just a minute before that, so yeah, i just started crying and yeah... then i started flciking myself with my rubberband that i got from the football game when henry, jeremy, and cody were flinging them, but yeah i just flicked it like on my arm all of lunch cause i was just so effing pissed! gosh! then sam asked me whats wrong in english class, and i was like what do you think is the problem, and he was like, its not him is it?, and im like no, even tho part of it was... but yeah i know, im bad. but yeah. but i have like a feeling james is going to say no to me, and i know im going to cry, because i cried today just because he said he was confused, and he needs more time since him and taylor like broke up on august 16th or something, im not sure what happened but yeah.. im just scared, like really scared.i havent liked a person in a long time so yeah, but im seriously scared. just thinking about what happened between me and travis, i cried so fucking much because of him. oh my gosh, just thinking about it. wow. well it was like one of the first times ive actually liked someone a lot. i guess i liked cody a lot, but i dont think i cried as much about him as travis so yeah.and ive cried lets seee, two times so far because of james, so yeah. but like im not even kidding, im really scared about being rejected, im like really really scared, i think i might tell sam that.. but yeah.since yeah. but i really am, im about to cry because im so scared. yeah.... but yeah. anyways... ill just end it here i guess.

ah im so happy! :)

okay so yesterday, i told sam i liked james and told him not to tell anybody, but guess what, he tells james, but he seems to like me! ahh! im like really happy, hahah. but yeah, ive been thinking about him a lot and yeah, but omg. like last night, sam called at 11 30 ish and was like "uhm cindy im sorry but..." and i thought he was going to tell me that james didnt like me back, but instead he told me he was sorry for telling james that i liked him but im not mad at him for that ,since it so happens that james likes me back too, haha :) so yeah., but sam said that james wants to be single for now and he might either ask me out in one WEEK or two or one MONTH or two. sam forgot if he said week or month so yeah, but im still really happy haha. oh and like yesterday when i was trying to find out who he likes, sam was like damn rebecca, and i was like omg james likes rebecca?! and then sam put" imed me" and i was like omg sam you scared the crap out of me, haha, i was like literally scared, i was thinking like do they even talk and rebecca already has william and yeah, haha. oh and sam just asked me like ten minutes ago to ask james out and i was like uhm no girls dont ask guys out, and he was like well james doesnt ask girls out and i was like he doesnt? and sam said he never has. and i was like well i could be the first girl hes asked out :) so yeah im kinda happy with that, hahaha yeah if i was the first hes asked out, pretty cool :) but yeah, i might go to the movies with him, jayden, and sam, since jayden and sam are probably going to go out kinda soon, but i dunno. were going to go watch mirrors which is supposesably a good and scary movie. i have a feeling im going to like scream... hahaha. but yeah, hopefully the seating chart will be like, sam, jayden, me, and james :) haha yup. but man, i was kinda mad that i couldnt go to the princeton football game to watch james play :[ but oh well, its over with, haha. but yeah, and im actually kinda tired so im going to go.

fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck!

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school, catherines, football game!

okay, so lets start way back like last week. well actually monday. the last day of flipping summer, but it was pretty boring. i spent the whole day working on my project basicallly, but i got it done, got kinda help from people. but yeah i finished it woo! haha :) so im pretty proud of myself. even tho people were like uhm, that was really easy, but i dont think it was so yeah! haha. but omg school, is actually kinda fun, and pretty fast. i have a good feeling that this school years going to go by kinda fast and be fun :) so im happy with it, haha. but other than school and crap, catherine came over to my house on friday, she rode the bus home with me. we sorta chilled and ate at my house and then we walked to see the house bunny, and it was like a reallly good movie, like im not even kidding. prolly going to be one of my favorite movies, haha but not better than she's the man. but yeah. then we had ice cream afterwards at the movies. and her parents came, took us to my house, and we got our stuff ready. hah. but yeah. then i went to her house, we chilled and stuff. and then we fell asleep at 11 something! like earlier than 11:21 because matt sent me a message but i didnt read it. so yeah. but we fell asleep like so early, haha. but then i woke up at like 7 something and i was textng back the people that texted me when i was asleep, oh and i woke up at seven on my own free will! yay me, the earliest ive waken up to in like the longest time on my own free will, like im not even kidding. hahah. and then i fell back asleep after i was texting, and oh yeah catherine like woke up and saw me texting and she also fell back asleep. then i woke up to catherine texting and yeah. hahha. it was then like eight when we like fully woke up. then like matt came over at like 12. and him and catherine kissed a lot, hahaha, prolly like six times or something, idunno. but yeah. then we watched accepted, i didnt really watch it tho, since i was texting like ten people at the same time, haha. but then we got ready and we went to pick up claire and alissa and went to the football game, hell yes! it was soooo fun! but i like indirect kissed sooo many people. lets see. abby, jelani, sam, cody, tyler, james, and jeremy maybe, ahha. yeah i know, i feel like such a slut but i was thirsty! ahha but the game was so fun. i was hanging out with rebecca and william for a lot of the time. haha i was like william, you liar, you me that you had a six pack, and rebecca was like yeah i know, all he has is fat and we started laughing, and william kept pulling his shirt up and were like whoaa, and ew, haha. and then he lifted up james shirt to see if he had a six pack, and yeah he did! hahah, it was sexy. but anyway me and rebecca were like oo and dayyum haha. and then james was like oh well i used to have an eight pack but now i have a six pack, and i was like oh that sucks but atleast you still have a six pack, haha. but yeah, it was funny. and jeremy, i dunno why but his pants were unzipped, and tyler gutierezz i dunno how to spell his last name but he was like zipping up jeremys pants, and then he like quit, and then he asked me who was nexted to tyler to zip us his pants, and i was like who me?! and he was like yeah and i was like um noo thanks, hahaha. but yeah. oh and there was some drama going on too! like erika and jillian said that catherine and alissa said that dani and amy hated erika and jillian. but i know how this like started, it started with me and alissa accidently telling erika in gym that dani said that jillian was annoying, but whatever. erika totally like reworded everything we said so it doesnt matter anymore, she just can;t use our locker and yeah. oh and i gave like everyone a hug basically, meaning james :) i think i like really like him like im not even kidding. i havent liked someone in like a long time, not kidding about that either, but yeah, but i dunno if he would go out with me so i dunnno! but i think hes like hot now. like before i just thought he was like the cutest boy, but not hot, but now yes i think hes hot, hahaha. but i sorta like cody to, just not as much as james, and omg! cody told me to get on aim last night after the game, and i did, and i was on the phone with ivy and i was like do you dare me to ask him if he still likes me and he said yeah a little, and then i told him i sorta liked him, since i do, and yeah, and then he was like i really like you tho and i was oh im sorry, hah yeah i know. but i like james like a lot more... so yeah. but yeah thats it and wow today i wrote a lot, hahah/

lexis house for three days?

well, i havent written in a while, huh? well ive been at lexis for three days, and i came back yesterday nightish. we had fun, haha. ew she had toe surgery, so discusting. like an ingrown toenail or something? well when she was having surgery, i was outside talking to jelani on my cell phone and eating two special k bars, hahah. i LOVE SPECIAL K BARS! there so flipping good. i can prolly keep eating them if i really wanted to, haha. but i think it was on tuesday? yeah tuesday, i got my picture taken for my passport, it was okay, not horrible so im happy with it, haha. but yeah. yesterday, it was my schools cookout. i got to see kinda a lot of people i havent seen over summer. it was fun and it went by way fast. haha. but im on team pogue? and so is a lot of other people but i dunno. hahah! jelani is in like the same academic classes as me because he didnt like pass algrebra one last year, so hes doing it again this year. hahaha. funnys, so yeah. but i kinda got my project done? kind of, ahha. i really do hope i get it done tho, cause yeah. but oh i got my pacsun jeans today! hah, but now i need my glamour kills stuff, gosh whats taking so flipping long?! but omg omg omg school starts in three days? since today is basically over, blehh! ew, ew, ew, i really dont want school to start, but whatever, hopefully its a good year, but immma go so peace out.

ayyy

rachels birthday was like two days ago? on august ninth, the boys like girls/the maine/metro station/good charlotte concert. ah i wish i went, but oh wells. well today/yesterday since its a new day now was fun since i went to kings island with a lot of people, well not really. only me catherine matt haley travis william and rebecca. but yeah, i rode firehawk for the third time and i actually liked it this time. haha, like every time we talked about firehawk before i rode it today, i was like ew i hate that ride, it goes so flipping slow, haha. welll today when i rode it, it was like a good speed, hahah. but yeah its fun, i like it. and also i went to catherines house on august ninth, and we made two videos, but they suck compared to the hey juliet one, haha. but yeah, oh yeah! it was so flipping cold today. because well because me catherine matt and haley rode white water canyon three times and we got pretty wet but not like soaked haha, but then later on the day it was so cold. im still like really cold right now. haha. wearing sweats and a hoodie in the summer time, haha. and oh man, i have to read the and then there were none like ending of it, like the after things after the epilouge? i think thats how you spell it, haha. well man yeah, i have to read that, then hopefully me and lexi would get eachothers project done on tuesday and wednesday when i come over her house and sleepover. but yeah. AH MAN! school starts in like eight days! bleh, i really dont want school to start, this summer was so fun. but i like realllly hope eighth grade would be good, ha i know, ive said that about ten times, but whatever. but yeah im going to go now, peace.

happy birthday lydia!

awh, it wouldve been lydia's twelfth birthday today, and the day she died is coming up soon :[, almost two years, wow, i really hope her family's doing well, i know i would be like so depresed and crap if lydia was like my sister. but she lived a good life so im happy for her. but ah, i have school on the day she died, i guess i'll try to get a wristband and wear it that day? ha, but why does school start so fucking early this year?! i mean i got out of school late, but yet im going back to school early?! that makes no sense, gosh. but atleast i get to get out on may? i guess thats something to be looking forward to, ha. but yeah. i really do hope that eighth grade will be a good year, i really really do. but i kinda wish i changed to a different school, bleh. so much drama. well not in seventh grade, there was like very little compared to sixth grade, oh my gosh. sixth grade was soo much flipping drama, every single day. wow, im glad its not like that now, for well now. maybe eighth grade might have more drama? but hopefully the dramas not going to be about me, or something retarded, but yeah, bleh, i have to get my braces tightened today, ah, i hate days like today, ha. well anyways bye.

oh my flipping gosh,

flipping school starts in flipping two weeks from today, im really not ready at all, ha, and i really dont want to go back. damn, summer went by so flipping fast this year, ah! hopefully eighth grade would be a good year tho, unlike seventh grade, i dunno if i actually did or did not like seventh grade tho. it was like an okay year, there were tons of times i laughed and tons of times i was like half asleep, haha. but i like need to do good this year, to make up last year, cause my grades werent as good as they were, bleh. and so my parents would buy pratically whatever i wanted? just not something unreasonable. but omg, lydia's birthday is tomorrow, she wouldve been twelve tomorrow, so sad :[ i really hope her familys alright tho, but im pretty sure they are, i mean theyre pretty strong. but yeah, OMG, im going to flippign washington dc sometime in may for choir! im like soooo excited! :) like all the concert peeps and jazz band people are going to washington dc which makes it better, but oh yeah, i forgot that the eighth graders/ninth graders arent going to be here, awh :[ but i really need to work on my summer project, i just finished reading it like what, two days ago? and its like worth ten percent of my english grade, and ah french, i think i forgot about everything, ha, i really need to pratice on that, cause bleh, i hate mr. wagner and he'll be like why didnt you pratice this summer and blah, blah, blah.but oh yeah, i went to my grandparents house cause it was like a small party for my grandmas birthday. i dunno how old she is tho, ha. but i gave her one hundred dollars cause my mom said so, but its not even mine, that one hundred dollar bill, since my mom gave it to me on the day of warped tour, and yeah, ha. but wow, everything with me and cody feels a little weird now, well reallly weird, and i might go to kings island with him, and like seven other people tho, so yeah, i dont really have to talk to him, ha. but im going to start working on my english project, hopefully tomorrow? so yeah, alright peace.

i hate love,

wow, i hate love, in real life. cody houston likes me, bleh, hes like one of my best guy friends, and i cant believe he asked me out two days ago! and i already asked him to go to the forever the sickest kids concert with me, but hopefully ivy can come so then it wouldnt be as weird, and it feels weird now kinda around him, but we hung out yesterday, he was teaching me how to skateboard, i can kinda skate now, yay! ;) ha but yeah, and then he bought me a coke which i didnt ask for? and he kept telling me to drink it but i said no and then he eventually drank it, and yeah, but i think im going to say no to him tho i feel kinda mean,,,, but oh wells, he said he'll understand if i only liked him as a friend but whatever.

Cindy's First Post :)

Hey! This is my first time blogging! haha, well, lately i've been really happy since warped tour on july 30, 2008! it was literally the BEST day of my life! i got to meet caleb turman from forever the sickest kids! i wish i met the rest of the band tho, but atleast i got to meet him! :) and i also got to meet shwayze! ah man i feel so lucky, haha. oh and near the end of warped tour, i freakin crowd surfed! it was hella awesome. and at first i was scared, haha. im soo glad i did it tho. and ah! i think i might be going to the forever the sickest kids/cobra starship/hit the lights/sing it loud concert on november 22! im like really excited for it, ha. i think im going to go with cody. and somewhere i read, i think all time low/mayday parade/the maine/every avenue might be coming to cincinnati ohio on the tuesday of the week that forever the sickest kids are coming? i dunno but if they are, im soooo going to that concert also! haha. oh yeah i was thinking about going to the boys like girls/metro station/good charlotte/the maine concert on august ninth, but it sucks that all the tickets to be in the pit are sold out, so i guess im not going to that concert, or projekt revolution since its sold out for the tickets in the pit, and the tickets cost like seventy five dollars for like seat numbers 23 or 24, ha, which sucks. but yeah im really excited for all the upcoming concerts! and hopefully i'll go to all of them :)

-cindy