fucking mrs buckmeier

omg, okay today i was in a reallly bad mood like at school, i barely talked and yeah, i was just pissed and kinda sad.... like james didnt wave back at me, hopefully he didnt like see me, if he did see me and didnt wave, thats embarrasing... but yeah part of the reason why i was sad today and because of mrs fucking buckmeier! i realllly dislike her.okay so i forgot my planner? and it had my math and both my science homework in there and so i asked for a fucking extra math homework sheet thing and she said something like she doesnt make any extra copies, well fuck her, and she wouldnt let me go to mr rebilas's room because i didnt have a planner, and so i asked catherine if i could use hers and she was like no, you cant use other peoples planner, omg, i was like really pissed, so after those two things happened, i was like ugh! but yeah.i was pretty much very pissed. and i did cry when jelani asked me whats wrong like before lunch, and i saw mrs buckmeier like just a minute before that, so yeah, i just started crying and yeah... then i started flciking myself with my rubberband that i got from the football game when henry, jeremy, and cody were flinging them, but yeah i just flicked it like on my arm all of lunch cause i was just so effing pissed! gosh! then sam asked me whats wrong in english class, and i was like what do you think is the problem, and he was like, its not him is it?, and im like no, even tho part of it was... but yeah i know, im bad. but yeah. but i have like a feeling james is going to say no to me, and i know im going to cry, because i cried today just because he said he was confused, and he needs more time since him and taylor like broke up on august 16th or something, im not sure what happened but yeah.. im just scared, like really scared.i havent liked a person in a long time so yeah, but im seriously scared. just thinking about what happened between me and travis, i cried so fucking much because of him. oh my gosh, just thinking about it. wow. well it was like one of the first times ive actually liked someone a lot. i guess i liked cody a lot, but i dont think i cried as much about him as travis so yeah.and ive cried lets seee, two times so far because of james, so yeah. but like im not even kidding, im really scared about being rejected, im like really really scared, i think i might tell sam that.. but yeah.since yeah. but i really am, im about to cry because im so scared. yeah.... but yeah. anyways... ill just end it here i guess.