i hate my life right now

okay so a lot of people think im like a skank and fucking crap like that, just because haley and dannie are telling people that i did crap, okay i dont fucking care about them anymore. they just keep making more drama, and im like yeah, not really making any drama. so a lot of peopel hate me. and omg, i like fell asleep yesterday all of it. like all through math and advisory, and when i got home, i fell asleep at five thirty, then woke up at nine thirty, and went back to sleep at eleven... but yeah, i hate my life right now. it is just go fucking retarded, gosh, oiwfwoegboa okay, whatever. well me and sam might go to the concert, the we the kings and the academy is... concert, hopefully. but yeah, haley is just being a bitch, i havent even really said anything about her, like nothing really, because i dont want to start more drama, i hate this school year, theres so much fucking drama, where I AM involved in, its so stupid, and plus, ive already liked someone. last year in seventh grade, i didnt really exactly like anyone, so yeah, i just really hate this, ugh, fuck, whatever. i just really want love, like seriously speaking now, someone who reads this is probably going to laugh, but yeah i just want a boyfriend who i can depend on, i feel like i depend on jelani a little bit too much.. but yeah, i hate this..... and on saturday i went to kings island with dana and we met up with adrew and keith. after that, keith told me he liked me when i went to danas house to sleepover. i dont like him, i still fucking like james, fuck fuck fuck, but yeah, then dana called him left him a voicemail asking him if im really wasting my time liking him and he said hm thats a hard question he'll have to think about it and i asked him yesterday if he likes me as a friend and nothing more and he siad um yeah os yeakrjblbnwesoinvwen fuck ilewbnoiwebgnoiesnf

okay my dream today was kinda funny, but sad now that i think about it

okay so my dream was like, well the setting of it, was yesterday night when i was like at james's house, then he like put his hands on my shoulders and was like cindy, will you ask me out? and i was like um no you do it, and then he was like okay okay okay and walks away, so i was like are we going out or not in my head, and then all of a sudden i was with cody, and we walked into his house, he looked at me and walks like right past me, and then i told jenny about it, and she was like awh you shouldnt have said that, he has never asked a girl out, and yeah, so then like she starts crying and stuff and talks about ryan so i was really sad and stuff, and yeah... then all of a sudden i was at a pool with alissa brynn and rebecca and the water was really discusting, haha thats all i remember but awhhhh, this dream made me sad, because im like 80 percent sure hes not going to ask me out, so yeah....

ahahahha okay

alright, so on wednesday, on the bus, claire texted me and was like so i heard you gave james a handjob, and i was like um no who told you that? and she was like james, and i was like um well i didnt. and then chelsea texted me and said so i heard you gave james a handjob, and i was like omg, who told you that? and she was like james, and im like, omg how does chelsea know? like does a lot of people know, or what..? and then chelsea texted me and was like sorrry! that was sam ,and i was like oh okay, its fine. and so then i thought james told sam, so i was like ugh that bitch, but i texted him and was like um whyd you tell claire i gave you a handjob? and he didnt reply so i was like, oh this bitch and dickhead, in my head. and i called alissa, and i was like tearing up when i was telling her, and she was like omg hes such a bitch, and yeah. so then we called his house phone. no one answered. so then we called his cell phone. he didnt pick up, so alissa was like, um why are you telling people you gave cindy a handjob? thats not true so stop spreading rumors, cunt. and then it was just me and her on the phone again, and i was like hahaha nooo, alissa, its me giving james a handjob, not him giving me one, and she was like oh hahaha let me call him back, and then she left a voicemail saying, sorry about that, i meant why were you spreading rumors saying that cindy gave you a handjob? and oh it was me that apologized to you, not catherine, but i take that back, so yeah, cunt. hahahhaha, alissas funny and mean. but woo man i was pissed... then i IMed sam saying i hate you, like i hate you for believing james or something, but he was like hahaha sorry it was me both times, meaning he took claires phone and said that to me, so i was like oh fuck, alissa left him mean voicemails,.... hahahaah, so yeah, i was like kinda mad at sam. but then me and jenny were on the phone basically talking about anything, and then like i told about what happened, and she was like oh haha i would be mad too and stuff. and james texted me like at six saying i didnt. and i was like oh yeah, i kinda figured that out, in my head, but i didnt text him back because i didnt feel like explaining to him it so yeah, so i was like haha im just going to call james after i get off the phone with you. and so me and jenny got off the phone, and then i called james, and i was like uhm did you get the voicemails that alissa gave you...? and he was like um no what are you talking about? and i was like oh well alissa left you voicemails because she thought you were telling people i gave you a handjob.. and he was like well i didnt, and i was like yeah i know, i know who did it, and he was like who? and i was like fucking sam, and he was like he's a dick, and i was like ha yeah i know, and then i was like well alissa doesnt mean like any of that by the way, and yeah then we talked some more, probably for like five minutes, and then i was like alright so i guess ill just text you so bye, and he was like bye and yeah. ahahah okay, and so like the next day, on thursday, before zero bell, and like only kids were in the hallway, sam came out of his instrument room,and was like laughing a me, and i was like sams a bitch! really loudly, and like everyone turned around and looked at me, ahahahha like james, because he was going in the instrument room, but he turned around because he knew why i called sam that hahahah so that was funny. and alissa apologized in person to james and yeah. then me and alissa were on the phone, and then we called james? i forget why, but yeah we did. and then she left after ten minutes, then me and james were on the phone, ahhah we didnt really like talk that much, but yet we did? but yeah, we were on the phone for an hour and like five minutes, ahaha, but yeah. then on friday, i went over to james house at like 5:45, because his mom was giving me a ride and yeah, it was kinda weird, me and him were just sitting across from each other hahaha, and we were like watching the news, hahahaha, but he asked if i wanted to watch anything and i was like i dont really care, hahaha but yeah, and he also asked if i wanted anything to eat or drink and i was like nahh, im good. but yeah. hahah then we went to the game, and oh boy it was cold! hhaha, i was like omg im cold like every ten seconds, then james gave me his sweatshirt, once again, but i kept asking him do you want it back? and one of the times he was like nahh i can handle it, im a white boy, white boys dont get cold, hahahaha, hes cool, then i asked him like the fifth time, and ive had it on for like thirty minutes, and he was like yeah kinda, haha so i gave it back but nothing really happened. only like ten people went that i know, i think maybe less? but yeah. BUT OMG, so there were like middletown boys, and they came over our side. and there seventh graders, and claire kissed one of them four times, and they werent like pecks either, they were like a minute long kisses, and she only knew him for like an hour, wow shes such a little skank! haahha everybody that i was hanging out with was like omg shes such a skank. like me mac james cody emily brett jake and omg i think thats all the people i was basically with?! wow i thought here were more.. but yeah. then cody was like okay no one talk to her, but i did in the end, i was like that was kinda skankish and she isnt even going out with that guy... but yeah. but we lost, we like ALMOST won, 29-28, it was a really close game... but yeah. hahah okay so james was like okay bye! and he gave me a hug, and i was like too bad your giving me a ride home, and i was like i am? oh yeah i am! and hahaha i did that to mark to, i went up to him and i was like bye! and jenny was like were giving him a ride home! and i was like oh right, and then james laughed at me, and i was like thats what you did to me! ahahha, but yeah, it was funny. ahahah okay so jenny dared me to jump on cody so i did, but oh course i fell because hes not that strong, and he was like oh i was trying to get you off because i thought you were claire, oh suree.... but yeah, then cody was like fine ill give you a piggy back ride, but he bent down too far, and i was like rolled over, hahahaha, it was funny, but it kinda hurt, hahaha but yeah. then i was at jennys james and merediths house, i was ABOUT to sleepover but my dad was like you shouldve told me before and crap, oh well, its all good, i was a little mad, but ehh not so much, but yeah. so then i left there house almost at 12, but it was like 11:45 so yeah. i dont even think james know i left, hahah, but yeah. it was fun at the game yesterday. but yuppp, i wonder if im really going to go to kings island with alissa, but i dont know,... if not i might just go with james but yeah, ill write in here later,so yeah bye.

well i feel like a bitch

okay, well apparently, haley thinks tyler likes me... so yeah, and she like is all mad and stuff because she thinks of all her boyfriends, travis nick and tyler, has liked someone else while they were going out with her. and two of them happen to like me. well, thats what she thinks. like she thought travis liked me, and now she thinks tyler likes me, so yeah i feel like a bitch. and to cody? i was kinda mean to him and stuff on the bus yesterday, i hurt him physically and emotionally.... yeah... but im too tired to type so ill maybe type it tomorrow, so yeah, bye

fearfest was fun this saturday

on saturday, was the most fun i had ever had in feafest. but the day started out like this. me cody and james planned to go to fearfest. and like james was going to go over to codys but he fell asleep hahaha, so i went over to codys house. we were there just chilling for like thirty minutes. then we went to red robins with his parents and four of his parents friends. it was cool i guess. haha. but yeah, i got like mozzerella sticks. because they said i HAD to get something, so i was like alright i will. but yeah. i saw so many people from my church there! it was crazy. and like amy looked at me and turned around and kept walking forward. i dont think she remembers me at all. haha but yeah. then after red robins. we walked outside and damnnnn it was fucking cold. and like i only had skinny jeans, a tank top, and my princeton tennis sweatshirt over that, and converses. dude, it was so cold already and that was around seven? and like cody wouldnt give me his long sleeve shirt so i texted james and was like are you still home? and he said ha yeah and i was like alright will you get a sweatshirt for me to wear since im like really cold. and he said alright. and yeah. then he got to kings island at like seven ten and hahaha dude okay so me and cody were like at kings island at seven ten but it took us twenty minutes to go through the metal detector thing, then go to the one place where you go to get a ticket if you forgot your pass, and they told us we had to go to the group sales for that, so we had to walk all the way back, and then get my ticket, and then go through the metal dectector again, and get our ticket/pass scanned and yeah. hahah it took forever, there was a line for everything. then me and cody got in to kings island, me and james were like on the phone explaining where each other is, and cody had to go to the bathroom, hahah, i was like james go to the bathroom, and he was like the bathroom? and im like yes the bathroom and he was like i dunno where that is and i was like uhm where are you then? and he was like im at the car, and im like which one the right or left one? and he was like the left one and then i finally found him, and gave him a hug and he gave me his sweatshirt. he was just wearing two t shirts, and im like are you not cold? and he was like no im not , im fine. and im like are you sure? hahaha i asked him that like five times when we were there. i wore it basically the whole time at kings island. so then we walked to the bathroom, and cody joined us. then we were like walking to the train trail and like so it was james then me and cody and like people kept doing stuff to james hahaha, like different random people. one of them like bummed into him purposely, and something else happened with another random person, and then a random person took a picture of us? like it just flashed and then james was like cody do you want this side? hahaha. but yeah. we stopped at like a candy machine thing? i think, and like cody was like cindy buy me some skittles, and like he was like oh you cant because you have a twenty dollar bill and they dont accept it, and so i was like how do you know they dont accept twenty dollar bills, and i looking at james and cody, and they were both smiling really big and i was like uhm why are you guys smiling really big? and cody and james were like look behind you and i didnt, but yeah, hahaha. then cody and james tried to run from me, and i jumped on cody and codys like im about to fall and then he falls, hahahah, and like james gave cody a piggyback ride, it looked sorta gay, hahaha but then we saw the line for the train and it was super long so we just went to the pirate one. but they wanted ice cream so we went to get ice cream. they both got the blue ice cream. but i had to pay for codys since he didnt have any money. but hahahah okay, so james got his ice cream first and it like fell over when he licked it and he caught it! hahahaha, people like there ordering there ice cream and the workers were like did you catch it? and yeah, and so his ice cream was like sideways ahhaha. then we went in line for the pirate trail thing. and like james ate like all the top of his ice cream and like one fourth of his cone and then he was like oh, im done eating this, and just drops it on the ground. hahaha. then cody cody asked if i wanted his ice cream and im like no, and then he asks james and james was like i just dropped mines because i didnt want it. haha so then cody was like dude james i dare you to drop this and cody barely ate his ice cream, it was like still a lot. so then james took it and just drops it. ahahahah it was hilarious. i have a picture of it. but yeah. it landed on like the top part. then while we were in line, they were talking about there "six packs" and cody was like look at my six pack and lifts up his shirt and james was like what six pack? ahhaha, and then james shows off his six pack, mmmm hahaha, then cody keeps talking about his six pack, and james was like you have a one pack. hahaha. but yeah then we went on the pirate thing. there was a group in front of us, then cody, then me, and then james. hahaha james was dead last. it was not really that scary at all. maybe because it was my second time on it, but i dunno. after that, we got in line for the train. we were in line for like ten minutes. hahaha james was like oh crap i think thats my cousin, and me and cody were like which one? and i was like james irwin! and he was grabbed me back and i kinda fell hahahha. then cody kept saying james irwin super loud but they didnt look back. haahhah when we were in line, we kept chin checking each other, and dude cody chin checked me like super hard, it kinda hurt hahah. then we got out of line because it was too long and we were walking to racers? and like i asked cody for a piggy back ride and codys like no! and im like okay fine, and then i asked james for a piggy back ride, and like james gave me one, and he was like running with me on his back and cody was like yeah yeah yeah! running along too hahah, then james was like okay lets now switch or something like that, and so i was getting on codys back from james back but it didnt really work well and i was like see cody you cant carry me, your too weak. hahah. and then cody was like no i can carry you, just stand on that thing and get on my back so i did and yeah he actually did carry me. but i kinda just got off because i was already falling to the side hahaha. yeah then this random hot dude hahahha walks up to cody while we were passing him and i thought he asked cody if he wants a cigarette and codys like no, and then he asks me and i was like yeah! then he was like you have one? and i was like oh no, and james was like what did he ask you and yeah. then we started talking about smoking. and james said he has smoked two cigarettes in his life. and cody said he smoked pot before and james was like for real? and cody was like yeah. and james was like from where? and cody said from his cousin and james was like you should hook me up and codys like im just kidding i didnt smoke it, but i did like take a puff of it. and yeah. i didnt really say anything about it haha. but yeah. then cody and james rode racers together, and they made me ride by myself, yay... hha yeah. then right when they got off, they ran from me! hahaha, i like got off, but i fell, and everyone was like ooooo, like ooo that hurt, or something like that, and hahah they kept running and then they finally stopped. they like they still kept trying to run away from me but i had james arm, haha. but yeah. then there was like a smoke thing, and like james went to like breathe it in, and he like bent down, but fell but he put his like hand down to like not fall on his face, and he broke the smoke box thing, hahaha. but yeah. then we went into la rosas, and like cody was like okay give me money to buy pizza, and i was went into my butt pocket to get it, and i was like omg, i dont have it, and cody was like are you being serious or just messing around, and im like im serious. and then like james was like ill pay since he had like fourty bucks, haha. then i went to the bathroom. and when i came back, i was like behind james and i poke his sides, and he like turned around quickly and stuff, and was like startled and was like oh, hahaha. it was kinda funny. then cody wanted a cheese pizza, and he didnt want his pizza to have peperroni on it like at all. he didnt even want it to touch. and james wanted pepperoni on his pizza, and they only serve like either two cheese, or two pepperonis, and they both didnt want to ask the person for one cheese and one pepperoni, and then i was like fine ill ask, and so i did and it was simple. and james was like yeah and we did the handshake kinda thing. and james kept asking me if i wanted anything and i was like no, i dont and he was like are you sure? and he kept asking me that for like three more times. haha. then there was like meat patties in this thing, and there was like oil juice kinda thing to keep it warm and oily? and cody was like james would you drink a cup of that for like fifty bucks, and james was like ew, no, i would barf, and then james asked me, and i was like uhm no because thats like meat and he was like why you dont like meat? and i said i was a vegetarian and he was like you are? and im like yup. and then cody was like are you a vegetarian because you think your fat? and i was like i weigh 95 pounds so i dont think im fat. and he was like oh okay because haleys a vegetarian because she thinks shes fat. and yeah. then we were talking about wrestling weight. and how cody weighed like 98 pounds last year for wrestling. hahah damnn he was extra skinny. but now he weighs 115. and james weigh 120. then i just got water, and james got sprite, like a large one to share with cody. and he asked if i wanted sprite to put in my cup and i was like nah. and yeah. then after that we went to the clown trail. they made me wait in line by myself for five minutes because they had to pee, hahaha, but yeah, then somehow we were talking about smoking, and cody was like nah ill never smoke because thats how my uncle died, and i like felt really sad and bad, and then james was like oh yeah because it like clogs up your lungs and everything. then cody was like yeah he died because the doctors gave him the wrong medication, and james was like them bitches and awh i couldve cried right there and then because i just felt super bad, and i know cody cried at the vineyard trip because of his uncle. wow, i just felt like uber bad. but yeah so they kept talking about crack and everything and i was just really quiet since i was sad and stuff, and cody was like cindy probably thinks were like crazy or something and i was like um no i dont really, and cody was like oh alright because your not talking and stuff. were not going to do that kinda stuff and james was like yeah, and then cody asked whats wrong, and bleh thats the worst question to ask me when im like sad, so i was like about to cry, like i teared up and they didnt really know why i was sad, so they thought it was something they said, but it was and yeah. then like i just didnt really talk, and cody had this necklace, and they will like "accidentally" drop it so they can see if i was crying or whatever but yeah, then when it was our turn to get in line i was like the very first person, then cody, and then james and another group.hahaha dude, okay so like there was this part where its like mirrors or something you cant tell where you can go in so like i had to have my hand on the mirrors and if i feel an opening ill go through it. ahahah we went in a circle. but yeah. then like there was this opening that was only a foot wide and i was trying to go through it and cody was like cindy you dont go through there and i was like oh hahha. then yeah. it wasnt as great because they had less people working in the maze this time then last time i went. but yeah. then after that, we got in line for the cemetary and yeah. then me and james mentioned that cody looked bald, hahah because he had a hat on. and then he talked about shaving his head. and i was like ewww, cody, you'll look so ugly. and james was like i thought you said you dont call people ugly? because i said that i dont call people ugly since thats mean. hahah and i was like oh i was kidding when i said that. and then i was like cody i bet all the girls who think your hot are going to think your ugly if you shave your hair, and cody was like who thinks im hot? and i was like im not telling, and him and james were like why not? its not like something bad. and then i was like go guess, and ill say. and then cody was like you, and i was like uhm no, actually yeah kinda. but youll look hot if you grew your hair out. then he said kept saying peoples names, and he guessed alissa and catherine and i said yeah. then in the cemetary. i was pretty much first because the group in front of us just kinda went ahead. but yeah. so then i had to be first and i was kinda scared. hahaha, like i would just keep stopping and james was behind me so he was like cindy! go! and i was no! hahah. then me and james stopped because like we saw a shadow, and he was like i see someones shadow, and i was like me too. and then i was like stupid! thats the fogs shadow and he was like i know so go! ahhaha, like i kept getting scared on that trail for some reason. but after that we got on son of beast.cody rode by himself. hahahah, he himself said that he would ride by himself. but he started getting pissed at us and stuff. like james laughed at cody and was like cody its not even that big of a deal, but hahah yeah. then me and james rode it, we kept talking about how cold it was, hahaha., but yeah. then i was about to take off his sweatshirt like when we were going up the hill, and he was like no not now, i wouldnt even be able to put it on. so then we rode it, and yeah. i gave him his sweatshirt, and he put it on and was like oh this is nice and warm hahah. i wasnt even that cold when i took it off either. hahh. but yeah. then james took his phone out of his pockets, and his glasses from the clown trail came out, and i was like hey my glasses, and he was no theyre my glasses, they just came out of my pocket and i was like nuh uh, and reached through his sweatshirt pockets and they werent there, and i was like oh i guess they flew out when we were on son of beast. haha. but yeah. then we were in line for club blood, hahahaha okay james told cody his phone was indestructable, and cody didnt believe him so cody was like throw it against those concrete steps, and like james did and you could see that it worked perfectly fine, ahahah then cody was like like whoa awesome, he kept like dropping it, and people behind us were like what is he doing? hahahah then like the third time cody drops it, the screen like broke. hahah like only one fourth of it works perfectly fine, and the other three fourths is like black. ahhahaha. and james got mad at cody and cody was like i thought your phone was indestructable and yeah hahaha it was hilarious. so then like james hit codys stomach pretty hard with the back of his hand. hahaha and cody was like ow! and james was like wheres that six pack of yours huh? hahah i found it hilarious. then like we went into club blood and yeah, it was kinda discusting since there were pole dancers and stuff, and yeahhhhh, then we like left all together since james was going to sleepover at codys, and yeah, then codys parents gave me a ride home, and yuppp. that was my day, it was really funny, and today, i did nothing hahah. oh and james might be switching to my math and science class? i dunno for sure yet. but he used his moms phone today and yeah

this weeks been fun so far

okay so lets start with tuesday, burger king it was fun and a little weird. even jelani said it. cody picked me up at my house, and yeah. we got to burger king an hour early and yeah. we kinda just hung. nothing really big or anything. then jelani gave me a ride home. henry cody jelani and jeremy went to burger king. but actually we were mostly hanging out in wendys. but yeah. then i gave everyone a hug including jeremy... but yeah. and then on wednesday, i made like 48 cookies. hahah. i gave them all away on my birthday at school. not everyone got one.. but oh well. haha. dude when i was giving james a hug and everything. i was like shaking hahaha. yeah i know, im cool. but yeah. then for that night, i did nothing because no one wanted or could go to the orchestra concert with me. blah, but oh well. i still had fun that night, kinda. school was very fun. i wore a burger king hat, haha. but i dont feel like fourteen just yet. but yeah. then yesterday, i had tons of fun. i went to danas hour around like five something. it was really fun, but her house is huge! but i guess its because they have six kids in the house so yeah. and we ate dinner there. and yeah. i saw amy and yup, it was a little weird. haha. dana broke up with alan when i was there too! they went out for a week. dana broke up with him because he wanted to like kiss her already and shes never had her first kiss so yeah. but she made me play this stupid garbage can game. i felt soooooooo lame. hahahaha. but it was funny. like so i had this garbage can, and like i had to roll it down her drive way and it went like all swirly and crap on me and so i finally fell and we were like laughing a whole bunch. haahhahah it was hilarious. but yeah. and we ate her moms brownie, and mmmm it was delicious! hahah :D then like we got ready for the game and everything and yeah. when we got there we went over to the princeton side and then to the mason side. i felt a little weird over there. but we saw claires pedro... yay. hes kinda cute. he looks better with his hat on cause his hairs like a fro haha. but yeah. then we went back to the princeton side. i hung out with tyler gutierrez the most at the game. hahah we were like chin checking eachother. and i chin checked like everyone. and james tried to chin check me back and yeah it was funny. and then we called trues on eachother, well me and tyler, but i did it to him again because he believed james over me and something haha. but yeah the game was really fun. and like the dudes were playing football with james's phone. it broke into like five pieces like about four times. hahahah one of it was because of me. like he threw it really far and i didnt know i was suppose to catch it so like it fell to the ground and broke hahaha, but yeah.and when the dudes were playing football, i was on tylers back for like five minutes, and then i got tired cause i had to like hold on to him hahaha. but yeah, and then he gave me a piggy back ride again. but i felt really bad because his back hurted afterwards ;[ but yeah. it was really fun though. i hung out with mostly the freshmans, hahah. like dani and taylor gittings. but yeah,. and like james was saying how i should give him 50 reeses and im like no, hahah, dude fifty? no. hes like why not thats only like five dollars. oh sure, thats like five dollars for ten reeses, ahha. but yeah. but i might give him fourteen since hes turning fourteen? ahah, but yeah. oh and james had like sour patch kids, he gave me kinda a lot. and he gave tyler some and tyler was like do you dare me to sniff it up and so i was like yeah and he did, hahaha it was funny. but yeah. my hands were so sugary from the sour patch kids, it was annoying. oh and i gave like tyler two of my sex bracelets. and i have james one of them? ahha at first i was like no when james asked for it and then he was like why not me and mac were the ones who got them with our own money and i was like i was kidding when i said no, haha so i gave him one i think? because he broke two out of four of the bracelets i gave him at the last game. and like tyler was like what does each of them mean and stuff. and then he was like just give me your arm and im like no your going to try to break them. and then he was like no im not and we went on and then finally i was like okay fine. then he was asking james what this and that color meant. and then after all the questions and he was about to break one. and i was like no! so i bent down while he was holding my hands and kinda sat on james's shoes. haha.and they were both laughing at me cause i was freaking out and stuff, haha. but yeah it was fun. then near the end james had a ring pop that wasnt like opened yet, and i was like oh can i have a lick, and he was like you can have it and im like really? and he was like yeah i have another one and yeah. then i left with dana and her mom drove me to the restaurant and yeah. ahhaha dude the ring pop lasted like seventy minutes. hahaha. but yeah. then like yeah. we just kinda chilled there and yeah. hahahaha the most funniest thing was like okay. so i was with chris, he was like laying on my shoulder. and we were sitting on a couch. and then like jason was sitting on the floor against the counter desk thing. and like chris was like take a picture with me and him so i have a picture where chris is overly happy and jason is just there asleep hahahahah. it was hilarious. then me and chris took a picture, like a close up one of jasons face. hahaha. it was hilarious. and then i got a picture of chris like on the counter with like a piece of plastic of something and it was using that to tickle chris's nose. and like jason woke up and saw me laughing at him hahhahahha it was so funny. me and chris were like laughing and stuff. and then chris gave me a piggy back ride like around the restaurant. haha. tyler reminds me of chris. and they both said, your really light. as in weight. and yeah. but oh yeah, before, me chris and jason walked to speedway. we bought, well i bought, this like protein bar. it was like cookie dough, it was good. hahah. but yeah. yesterday was really fun :D


oh and i like fell asleep or something for twenty minutes. i missed singing happy birthday to grandma hahha i felt bad

hahaha today was hilarious

okay, so today in school. right after lunch, we were in the english room and mr. pogue wasnt in the room yet and jelani pantsed sam! hahahahaha, it was hilarious. what made it more funny was that sam was standing on a chair so like the whole class can see him in his boxers, hahahha. whew man that was funny. and what also was funny was, like mr pogue read us these sentences he made but he made a story. so like it was like cindy likes justin, but justin goes out with brynn. but he also likes dana brooke katy lexi or something like that. but he asked katlyn to go to the movies with him on saturday. and they kissed. hahahahhaha. and then in the end its like justin is a player. and justin has a problem. hahhaha that was funny. but when like mr pogue read cindy likes justin. i was like no! it should be cindy likes erik! and brynn and catherine were like yeahh! hahaha. but yeah. i loved today it was hilarious. but hahahahah okay so like i jumped on rachel at the end of the day when she was outside and we fell back. hahahahha. i fell on my left but cheek and my hand. and she fell on me. hahahhaha it was really funny. but yeah. she didnt get hurt so it was good. i wouldve felt bad if she got hurt. hahaha. but yeah. and so i went to burger king yesterday with cody henry jelani and jeremy. but like at five oclock, cody called me and was like okay im skateboarding to your house like right now, and im like um okay, even though were suppose to be there by like six thirty but whatever. so he came and got me and we walked to burger king. we got there at five thirty, hahah wow. an hour early. and then james texed me at 5:40 saying something about him not knowing if he could come or not. and so i called him. and i was like you should come to burger king! and he was like hah why? and i was like because you should come for my birthday and plus, it would be less awkward for me. and he was like how would it be awkward for you? and i was like because jeremys coming! and he was like well i dont know jeremy like that. and i was like sooo it would still be less awkward for me, and he was like hah okay ill ask my mom and dad to see if i can come and then yeah. then he couldnt come because jenny had a choir concert :[ oh welll. but yeah. me and cody just chilled. we walked across the street to speedway and yeah. got a drink and a 100 grand bar, haha. but yeah. then jeremy henry and jelani came.. yay. hahah just kidding. we went to burger king, i got my burger king hat, woo, and yeah. cody henry and jeremy left to go to wendys. and so i was with jelani. he ordered a pie? and french fries. hah. then we walked to wendys and jelani just like sat out there because he didnt want to go in wendys with burger king food haah

just a little weird...

KeepRunninJeremy (10:43:54 PM): You should call me in like 5 minuttes I'm super bored XDCiNdYXP (10:44:10 PM): oh im about to go to sleep soon sorry
KeepRunninJeremy (10:44:37 PM): oh okay haha
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XDCiNdYXP (10:45:23 PM): but im going to sleep now
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yeahhhh, just a little weird. but today was fine. jelani like did something to our quarterbacks shoulder and now hes like really pissed at himself :[
but i think i got his mood up, i mean after a while, he was back to his normal self :D so yeah im happy. well he seemed like himself. maybe he just wasnt showing it. but im pretty sure i brought his mood up so yeah. but tomorrow burger king with people? hopefully :D haha yeah, but yeah okay bye?

birthday party was awesome!

it was really fun, my party! henry alissa jelani and catherine went. we ate and yeah. but yup. it was just really fun, hahah. we took like pictures and stuff. haha. but yeah. henry gave me a shitty card, hahaha but twenty bucks, and jelani got me a cool looking card, but ten bucks. hahah. but yeah. i got a cake and stuff from olive garden. i thought it was free, but really, its six bucks. oh well. i ended up having to pay only 90 bucks but fifteen dollars, plus tipping. but yeah it was really fun. i got the five cheese ziti al forno. it was yummy, as always. except it tasted better the last time i ate it. haha maybe because it was my first time trying it last time? haha i dunno. but yeah. the cake was yummy. the people sang happy birthday to me, it was funny. hahah. but yeah. oh and of course, i cried today. because of my fucking mom, oh well whatever. then catherine and alissa left. so me and henry and jelani were just hanging out. hahaha henry and jelani ditched me! and i have a video of this. and im like running after them, hahaha. but yeah. oh and in the beginning of the video, henry was poledancing. hahahah, i love him. but yeah. then jelanis mom took me home. and jelani and henry walked me up to my house door. and yeah. haha :D it was really sweet and fun. i loved it. im pretty happy from it. but when i got home, i was just blah, hahah. but yeah okay bye, goodnight.

just got off the phone with jeremy

wow, i just got off the phone with jeremy. i was on the phone for an hour and twenty five minutes... damn. but i didnt really go to kings island... okay so jelani fucking fell asleep. like dude i called him like literally fifteen times, no joke. hahaha. but yeah. so then alissa called at seven asking to go to kings island. and i was like uhm i was going to go with jelani and james but i dont think jelanis going anymore and james might still be going. so we were thinking of people to invite to come. we called catherine, but she fucking rejected my call. so yeah. then we called james, and i asked him about going to feafest and he was like well im not exactly home, because im in a party kinda thing so yeah, and he wasnt going to get home anytime soon so i was like oh okay well ill talk to you later then, bye and yeah. so then me and alissa were just going to go but she cant since shes fucking grounded. so yeah. and then me and her were on the phone for like around four hours. hahah. we were talking about hot guys and stuff :D but yeah. and then i was on the phone with jeremy, because he told me to call him. and yeah.omg, we were talking about liking people and he was surprised that i only went out with one person and never had my first kiss and stuff. and then he was asking who ive liked and i said ive only liked three people. and i told him cody and travis. and i was like i cant tell you the third person and he was like please and stuff and i was like well if i told you it was henry, would you believe me? and he was like i dunno, haha. but yeah. and then he told me who he like liked i think but i wasnt really listening haha. and then he was like im not going to tell you the third person because you wont tell me your third person and i was like okay, and yeah haha. i really didnt care. watch it be me too, haha just kidding. but yeah. oh and jayden cant fucking go to my fucking party. so now its me catherine alissa jelani and henry hahaha. i invited alissa and was saying how i need one more guy and she said henry and henry said he might be able to go and yeah. yup im excited for it! :D

awh it was the last football game

yesterday was the last home football game :[ it was not the greatest, i can tell you that. but it was fun at times. it started getting more fun near the end. hahahahah dude i fell! like omg, the bleachers we were on, like we were standing on the part your suppose to sit on and it kept leaning back, and so i was like leaning back because of it and brynn and jayden were like omg cindy and brynn like pushed me forward, and like i ran in to james and someone else and fell into the part where your suppose to stand and i was just laying there laughing and my head down. hahahah. everyone was like omg cindy are you alright?! cause they thought i was like crying, hahahah. it was hilarious! hahaha. but yeah. and like i fell a couple times, just not as bad as that. haha, and oh yeah cody had skittles, and like i put my hand on like his skittles or his hand or something and he pulled back making me like leep/jump whatever to his way, hahah. but he gave me skittles, after i gave him a piece of gum, haha. but yeah. then this started becoming more fun, because i was with the guys, but i felt really bad for jayden, because it was jayden then me and then sam. and sam was like switch spots with me, so i did and so him and jayden were sitting next to each other and like jayden was thinking of breaking up with him... and i think she still is today so yeah.... but lets just see how that goes. and today hopefully kings island? ha yeah but yup not much else to say so bye? but wait oh yeah me and everyone else didnt do the thing on our stomach because like lots of people just bailed out haha so yeah and plus it was cold.

hello

im so excited for tomorrow! since its the last home game, me alissa jayden catherine claire rebecca and brynn are going to lift our shirts to show our belly, paint it red, and like have a letter on our stomachs, and spell VIKINGS, were so cool :D but im excited haha. but in a week, its my birthday! woo! :D im looking forward to it, ahah. but yeah, saturday, hopefully kings island? with jelani! and peeps, ahha i dunno. and on sunday, my birthday party kinda thing :D im excited for it. haha. but yeah nothing really to talk about so bye!

hahahah, we messed up in our own concert!

welll, we were singing, and i guess we got confused so we messed up in our choir concert and a lot of people laughed, including me. hahah, it was funny. and like alissa was like WOO CINDY! and everything, it was hilarious, i was cracking up on stage. and we had to sing a song named cindy, haha yeah i know, and alissa sang like a part of it, it was funny. haha. but yeah. today in school, i went to scarlet oaks for a tour of it. it was pretty fun, well just a little. probably better than going to first and second bell. so yeah. but in gym, me alissa rebecca and brynn just kinda skipped it. like we werent planning to, since we came back from scarlet oaks like ten minutes after third bell started and the people who went to scarlet oaks yesterday didnt need to do gym so we thought we didnt so yeah. but today was the best gym class ever. we had a lot of fun taking pictures and stuff. haha :D but yeah. oh haha, yesterday i asked james for some more bracelets and he did bring them in today. haha, i got like five more, woo! haha :D but yeah. also dude, me and sam were probably on the phone for four hours. not like a whole conversation that went for four hours straight. but added up, probably about four hours. so it was me sam and jayden on the phone. then sam left. me and jayden. and then jayden left. and so i had no one to talk to. then i called jayden because sam told me to, but she was going to sleep so yeah. then sam called me. and then we called anna, she didnt pick up, and then we called brynn. we were on the phone for like twenty minutes. sam left. so it was just me and brynn, and then brynn had to leave because her phone was about to die. so then i was like alone again. haha. and then sam called again. and then we called james since it was like eleven at the time and we didnt really know anyone else that was awake and we only knew he was awake because me and him were texting. but yeah. so we were on the phone and talked about stufff. and then like sam hung up on me, and i got like startled or something and i accidently clicked the red button, hanging up on james, hahah. and so then i called sam and james back, and me and james blamed everything on sam. hahah. and then we talked more. sam went to sleep.and then it was just me and james, and james hung up, and so then i texted him and was like thanks for hanging up on me, haha. and he was like i didnt one of you guys did and i was like oh probably a dropped call then and yeah. we stopped talking on the phone at like 12. and so then me and him were like texting for thirty minutes but i fell asleep. hahah. but yup. oh i went to greaters afterwards with rachel abby and anna but we met up with jada mayson katy natalie and dana there. but it was fun, haha.

oh i forgot

i forget to say that yesterday after we rode son of beast. we were going to the bathroom, and before we went in, james just threw his bag over to us, i get expecting us to take it since he didnt want to take it to the bathroom with him? so brynn took it, and then we went in the bathroom, did our hair, and yeah, and then i took his bag out, and we walked up to them, since they were already outside waiting, and then anna took his bag, and went to the girls bathroom, and then put his bag in there and came out. and then anna came back to our group. and then we started walking, and then brynn was like so james, wheres your bag? and he looked back, and then looked at us, and was like "you bitches" haha. and then james and travis was like whered you guys put it? and then they were like oh you put it in the girls bathroom didnt you? and so then this one little girl came out of the bathroom, and james like bent his knees and put his hands on them, and was like "can you geh" and she walked away before he finished! hahaha he scared her. and then i have a video of this, but this one girl who was going to the bathroom, travis asked her to get it and she got it and yeah. hahah it was funny though. good times :D

okay well,

i dont really like james, anymore, i still like him, but not as much so thats good. but i made ten cookies for jelani, two for james, and one for cody on jaydens birthday and gave it to them on jelanis birthday. i also wrote a really like emotional kind of letter thing to jelani for his birthday. but yeah. on friday, catherine was suppose to come over to my house, but she threw up... so yeah and alissa was suppose to to but she got grounded and she was about to break up with henry at my house, if she came... but yeahh, so i didnt even do anything that day.but on saturday, it was really confusing. so it was going to be me anna cody dylan travis and james, but cody couldnt go since his mom has a party thing, and so then me and anna needed a ride since cody was suppose to give us a ride. so then i asked my dad if he could give us a ride and he said maybe so yeah. and then anna couldnt go, so i didnt like want to go alone to kings island so i asked james if i could just go over to his house, and we could all go to kings island together, well me travis and james, not dylan. and he was like i guess. so yeah. and then james was like oh bad news, and i was like what? and he was like i dont have a ride. so then james and travis didnt have a ride. and travis told me that cody could go if i could give him a ride. and i really didnt want cody to go, so i was like my dad said he would only pick up you and james, or just cody, and travis was like beg, and i was like i already did, which i really didnt, hahah. but yeah. and i called dylan if he could give travis and james a ride, but he wasnt even going because he got in trouble. and then anna could come again but she needed a ride so of course i would give her a ride. and then brynn was coming but she also needed a ride. so i was like um can brynn go to your house anna and i can just pick up both of you. and so thats what we did. and then i was trying to get in touch with james because he didnt know i was giving him a ride, so i called him like threee times, and texted him once saying hey call me. haha, and then i called his house phone, and his mom said he;s allll the way in the back of the yard doing yardwork with his dad, so i was like oh okay well can you tell him to call me and she was like yeah and yeah. then he called me and i told him i could give him a ride and yeah, so yeah, hahah. then i went to pick up anna and brynn, and anna was like hey were all wearing blue! haha, and then i was like haha yeah, and i was like im going to text james and ask him if hes wearing blue, and he was like ha yeah, and i was like woah weird, were all going to wear blue, besides travis because i didnt know at the time. so then we went to pick up james, and yeah. before he came in we were all like talking and stuff, and then when james came, it was all awkard, and quiet, haha. but yeah. then i was like james do you know where travis lives? and he was like uh kinda, and i saw like sixth street, and i guess the street after that street was seventh? but i totally passed it and was like a minute down the road pass the turn. we were on like school street and travis was like explaining to me and i was like I DUNNO, hahha. and then we went back and i saw seventh street, and then finally we found travis's house. hahaha. it was so hard, we were like lost for five minutes, haaha. but yeah, and then it was all quiet again, when travis came in. haha, and then yeahhh, we went to kings island and yupp. we rode son of beast. travis and anna, me and brynn, and james all by himself. hahah. i took a picture when me and brynn were on it, and james was like in the background. and then i turned back and tried to take a picture of him, but he kept covering his face with his hands, so i just took a video of it. hahah. and then like we were about to go down the hill, and i was like FUCK MY CAMERA! but i got it in my pocket and zipped it up on time, hahaha. but it was funny. haha and then after the ride we went to loook at our pictures, and then like james's picture got blurred out because he had his middle finger up, hahah. but yeah. after that we met up with mac, and yeah.then we walked around a lot, and then me anna and brynn were in line for this one haunted house kinda thing with pirates. we thought travis james and mac ditched up because like they were taking a long time just to get "funnel cake" but yeah. then they finally came back, and was like trying to rub it in our face that they had funnel cake. ew, mac had this one thing it was like a fried oreo kinda thing and i was like ew that looks so discusting, and they were like its good. but yeah. then we were going into the house thing. and of course, i was first. it was me, brynn, anna, travis, james, and mac. i had like no clue where to go. brynn had to lead me, when we went in the house, it was like really dark, and i was like its a wall right here! and brynn touched the wall like right of it and i was like cindy here! and i was like ohhh! and like i almost when out of an exit, because i thought it was an exit, hahaha. but yeah. it was pretty scary. i mean some of them really popped out of nowhere. and one of them, i thought they were fake, but they were real. haha. i screamed kinda a lot, not like a lot though, but it was scary.and then we were chilling i guess again, and then james and mac ditched us! them bitches! so then me anna travis and brynn rode adventure express. it was a long line dude. but yeah. after that we kept calling james and mac, and i kept asking where are you guys, and they were like were not telling and yeah. lames. and then brynn found them. and we like ran, and travis was like texting and then saw us run and was like what?! ahhah funny. and then they were like oh we were at the arcade and i got some bracelets, and i was like oh i want some. and then i was like james, you should give me some more,. hahah. but yeah. and then like i think we rode vortex. me and brynn, anna and travis, and mac and james. i took a picture again and mac was in the background, and i tried to take a picture of james but again he put his hands in front of his fucking face, haha but yeah. and then anna me and brynn ditched them but running away right when anna gave travis his phone, and like only travis was running after us. hahaha dude me and anna ran into so much people. hahah. but yeah. then we just ran into travis and was like dude you have my pass! and that was the only reason i was running after you guys, and we were like oh, since it was about timme for him to go, haha, so we just chilled more, and we spent most of the time finding a bathroom for me and anna since we had to pee really badly. but yeah. then travis had to go. like when we hugged he lifted me up and then like dropped me and my but like landed on the hay/car, since there was like hay shaped box where you can sit on right next to a car that was there, and yeah there was a big sound that made and they were like ooo,haha but yeah then anna and travis hugged and kissed and yup. then me and anna and brynn went to the bathroom again. this time for brynn. haha. and then we went to buy fries. and to rub it in macs and jamess faces.but we barely had that much french fries left when yeah, but oh yeah before that, when it was me travis anna and brynn, we ran into amy, dana, taylor, alton, shelton. hah. but when we were going to drop zone since thats where mac and james were we found meredith. and then after it, we found jenny too because she was on drop zone while james and mac were too. and then james's best friend curtis joined our group and yeah. we chilled more. haha. okay so we went to buy ice cream but james and mac got theres for free! so unfair, and i had to pay for annas because she didnt have money and yeah. but that was lame, and i think curtis got ice cream too, and he had to pay for his too. and yeah. then we went to sit down and yeah.then we walked more i guess. then we went on this thing called monster. me and anna, and james and mac. brynn didnt want to ride it. so yeah. after that we rode racers, brynn didnt ride it again. me and anna took bad pictures of ourselves on it, hahah. but yeah. after that we like left. well we waited for macs little brother brett, and then left. and then i hugged mac, brynn, and james because macs mom was taking them home. and i was taking anna home. we were like barely talking, but still talking because we were so tired. haha. but yeah. then she went home and i went home and yeah.but hahah i jumped on everyone except anna, cause i know she wouldve definately fall. but yeah. at first i just jumped on travis, i like sorta missed, because i like fell to the side. haha, taking him down with me. but yeah. then i jumped on mac, that didnt work, he was wayyyyy tooo tall, hahah.and i jumped on brynn and she just crumpled, hahah. and lastly, i jumped on james, my ear hit his head, and that hurted a lot, hahahah, but it was fun jumping on like everybody, hahahahah :D i had a great time

he said he likes you as a friend and nothing more

is what sam said that james said about me. i can feel my tears, almsot coming out.... .gosh. i can get through this... theres way more guys out there. wow im about to cry,..okay now i am crying...okay, ill get through it. but anyways, today is jaydens birthday. tomorrow is jelanis. and yeah. well im going to go i guesss....bye, hopefully ill get over him