so far today....

so i cried a little and yeah... like brynn showed me a picture of james since she didnt know that sam told me yesterday that james didnt like me, but i was like almost crying when she showed me a picture of him. i was like yeah brynn you dont need to show me pictures of him. and then when i got my stuff out of my locker i walked into my class, and went straight to catherine, hugged her for sometime while i was crying then i told her what happened and stuff. she was like yeah james can be a real bitch sometimes. but its really not his fault that i like him, and not his fault he doesnt like me, but yeahh. i was sad there. and jelani didnt come to school, like i kept looking at the clock every thirty seconds and looked up when i saw someone at the doorway. but then he came 20 minutes late so it was goood. but yeah. i dunno. how i feel at all, really. i know i like james for sure, just that yeah. i need to stop liking him. ill get over it eventually, i dunno if im going to give him a hug though at the football game, itll just be really weird.... but i dunno... i need to talk to jelani at eight something, since he has a game today, hopefully we'll win... but yeah. i really want james to text me tonight though. and then ill ask him why he was mad at sam on sunday for telling me he didnt like me, when sam didnt really tell me, until yesterday, obviously... but yeah. i want to ask him why he didnt want me to know. and how eventually i wouldve found out.. but yeah. i will be scared, but hopefully ill be on the phone at that time. i dunno, but im going to make cookies and take a shower so byee.